Just saw your post now. I would rather say a no to texting him, considering that the both of you are like SO SO far away and you wouldn't want to feel uncomfortable. Dumbness is ok. There is nothing wrong with it. All of us are dumb in one way or the other. I'll go on and say it. I'm dumb too. Don't beat yourself up. You are the only person who can totally understand yourself. And don't give a shit on any bad comments anyone might pass on. I have never experienced true love but I have seen a lot of my friends in it and have guided them successfully. What I would say is keep the positive feeling you get in a "love at first sight" with yourself. Such feelings are really nice and make you feel special. All of us are special, in a way. Try writing songs, poems or even singing songs about them. It is the best solution. Don't call yourself asexual too coz you wouldn't experience any of this if you were. Learn to laugh away your own problems. This isn't a hopeless case. It can be a good turning point for your journey in life. There are many great people out there for you. Also, don't try looking out for them. It all starts with a miracle, in love. Just do what you do. Coz life is just like #YOLOSWAG. You Only Live Once, live it with SWAG.