I hate my main weakness: I rarely fall in love, just once every some years, but when it happens... I'm finished. I have a horrible ability to rise again and I know that's a weakness of me
This time, I've tried to think about a girl to stop thinking the old one, and after few months I'm completely in love with her
She MIGHT correspond me but she is leaving in a month and is afraid to start distance relationship sooo... she says she wants time to think about it, something like 3/6 months I think, and i'm fine with it as I'm very patient
However, she does not live in my city. She is mostly online during the night and we usually chat continuously for 3/4 hors until at 3a.m. someone falls asleep.
It's a tender thing, but during day, especially in the morning, I'm nervous and lunatic, probably because I'm always afraid that something will go wrong or that she is also in touch with some other guys who knows (altough I have complete faith in her, we are not together yet and if she had some other possible partner she probably wouldn't tell me soon to avoid making me suffer uselessly)
My problem now is that I have reduced concentration abilities, always anxious and often pretty sad with no reason. I want to stop this as I'm 18 and I'd like to finally live my life without endlessly thinking one single person and without being addicted to her. I'll have to do high school's last year, so I MUST study and I can't waste time for this as it's a really bad and unconsistent reason to be sad and unsatisfied
Thanks for reading guys... and sorrybfor having bored you