Alright then, I guess it's my turn.
So I'm one of the younger members of the Reborn community, probably one of the youngest, but I understand how you feel. I've gone through some crap in my life, and while not quite to the extent that you have, I can get a good grasp of where you're at. I'll keep my life story short here.
First of all, I'm black. "What's the big deal with that?" you ask? Well a few things. I'm black and I'm smart, and I'm black but I don't act ghetto. I'm 14 and I've experienced some pretty bad racism. The first point needs clarification. Contrary to popular belief, black people are intelligent. We have the same brains as every other race. While the people here are excepting of everyone, the people in the real world are not, and they will do everything they can to bring us down.
So I went/am going to a private school full of smart rich kids. I myself come from a middle class working family and am going there purely because I got good grades and because financial aid exists. But that's not where it ends. The amount of racial stereotyping out there is insane. It's like we have to be all in a certain area and all have certain traits and talk a certain way or we aren't black/white/asian/etc. Well, I didn't fit into their idea of what I should be, and that made them upset. I wasn't considered black because I was smart and didn't act ghetto, I wasn't considered white because I had dark skin, and I wasn't considered Asian simply because they didn't like me being intelligent. All of my friends left and abandoned me. I was shunned, betrayed, you name it. Even a few teachers didn't like me. My music teacher gave me hell for a few years. I was in a place full of elitists for 9 years of my life. That was my childhood. A child shouldn't have to go through that, they don't know how to deal with that. So I had two options, end it all or grow up faster.
To make matters worse, I have something called Sickle cell disease. It's a genetic blood disorder that would take forever to explain. While I have the milder version (type SC as opposed to SS) it still has an effect on my physical capabilities. Due to my blood not being able to carry as much oxygen, I am unable to be active for as long as other people. Simply put, my stamina sucks. If I over exert myself, I get some pretty terrible pain in my body that can leave me bedridden, and even hospitalized, for days. So I'm a tall smart black kid with a genetic illness who sucks at sports and is more intelligent than those who are sterotyped to be the best. People hate me for something I can't control. Suicide is no stranger to me either. Had it not been for my sister and a few of my friends at church I would not be here right now.
Mind you this was Mainly at school, with people I know. Outside school? I've been accused of robbery twice. I was accused of robbery when I was 11. What did I steal? Nothing. What did they think I stole? A water bottle. A $2 water bottle. Funny thing, I got it from a vending machine. The store I was in didn't sell that kind of water. This traumatized me for weeks. One Halloween I was beat up. Never went trick or treating again. All because of what I am.
TLDR:
So long story short, my life kinda sucked. But the one thing I did was break expectations. I didn't conform to what people said I should be, I made my own path. People judged me for what I am, not who I am. So I'm telling you now to break expectations. Carve your own path. Be who you are, not what you are. Don't ever give up, don't ever give in. Keep fighting and everything will turn out okay. You're and inspiration to us all Ame. If you ever need to talk or get something off your chest, we're here, and we aren't going anywhere.
I won't tell you to have a Happy Birthday, because that's only one day a year. So have a happy life instead.
P.S.Thats about all I can really say, this is long enough as it is. Idk if I was really able to capture the gravity of the situation, but I tried. Thanks to all those who actually read it.