Eviora

If you really think you need to die, then die. But don't keep trying to fool yourself into thinking it will actually help anything

Also stop treating this like a logical debate, you're a human struggling with your emotions overwhelming you, there isn't any logic behind anything you say right now

There's plenty of logic. You're right that I'm not entirely sold on the matter, though. It's mostly a matter of fear of failure; I'm a coward twice over.