So, I posted a while back, about seeking some much needed help.
Still awaiting the CBT, and had some devastating news over Christmas. My Grandad, one of the most important men in my life, my rock, my lodestar, has around 4 months left to live. This news has made me re-think a lot of things.
Despite being so very poorly, he is still bearing up. Still plasters a smile on his lovely face, still manages to smile despite everything. He is my inspiration, if he can manage to do all of this despite everything, then I'm pretty sure I can.
Just needed to get it all off my chest, and the lovely members on these forums are so amazingly supportive, so thank you all.