None of us DESERVE to. We come out of the womb gasping for air and a grip on life. You must earn and learn your way through pain and struggling to earn and understand true peace and happiness. But, you are human, the most resilient creatures on earth. Come on now, let us pick you back up.
And ALSO as long as you live, you have a chance to make a difference, redeem yourself and make your life worth living. Moping and Pity will get you nothing and nowhere. If you don't believe in yourself, why should anyone else? you can do this.