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Hello there to nobody once again. Hope the void is doing grrreat. (Fuck me, why do I bother. Gods damnit I’m lonely) 

My pfp :). Since i made this sprite edit I'm just posting it so people can see it better if they want.

Ok so, just finished cyberpunk 2077 for the 2nd time, chose to go for the star ending giving my v and Judy their happy ending (for around 6 months) 
I’m sorry Johnny I can’t give my body up, (granted that’s a bit of a personal irl hangup that prevents me from even thinking bout that one) and I just wanna say that final scene of V dropping the bullet necklace off of the panzer nearly made me tear up( probably would have if my eyes weren’t SO dry from being awake for nearly 2 days straight) seeing Judy happy was honestly so freakin cute, seeing V let go of the city she called home her whole life (fem street kid v is best v, FIGHT ME) I loved this ending so much more than the sun which I got on my first run, sure with the sun you get fame and fortune and status, but it’s completely hollow, Judy leaves ya.
 
 
tldr:
best ending is star ending.

Pokémon Vanguard is peak!!!!!

New theory dropping tomorrow!!!

I've swallowed myself but the fever remains
I'm numb to the pleasure but still feel the pain
If I showed you my soul would you cover your eyes?
If I told you the truth would you dare me to lie?
(I keep it all inside because I know the man is everything but kind)
 
one of the first songs I ever heard from one of my all time favorite bands, ironic as hell looking back, now that I know what the song is about. No wonder I gravitated toward it so much. I do fucking love MiW. 
 
in other not news (let’s be honest my life is not exciting) I’m still alive, though I guess that’s obvious… I AM posting on my sad lonely little corner. Anyway if by some chance anyone sees this and bothers to read this far, hey welcome to my lonely corner, feel free to stay awhile it’s likely the only company I’ll have for the foreseeable future friendless as I am, hope your havin a great day/night, hope your staying hydrated and eating enough. Hope things are going well for ya, make sure your takin good care of yourself, but treat yourself to something nice when ya can, life’s too damned short too live without fun. Though all things considered I really shouldn’t be givin advice of any kind… if anyone is unqualified to give advice on sparking joy and taking care of oneself it certainly isn’t me. Given just how miserable I am. But I suppose if others are doing well the world is all the better for those who are worth something to be doing better than I’ve been. 
 
real talk time I suppose, given that I’ve kinda taken this little corner to journal when I find a moment and maybe my struggles will resonate with someone somewhere someday, or maybe my time will go wasted like it always seems to, effort spent for nothing, as I remain alone and forgotten by the people who told me they’d be my friends and have my back. But I digress. I can only hope that my lamentations of life and misery can be worth something to someone. Perhaps then my lonely little life will have served a purpose and done some good. (Especially considering how damn useless I am irl haha) either way if anyone bothered to read this far, I don’t want pity, or even attention. All I want is to ensure that if there are others who feel the same to know they aren’t struggling alone. And that no matter what
 
 
you are worth so,SO much more than you think you are.

AHHHHHH
 
 
  why isn’t it October yet, the wait for ninja Gaiden 4 is KILLING ME😭

And seeing bright red, when it's shaking my core
Can fuck up your head and fill it with thorns
When words are a threat, you can't take anymore
I leave you a wreck, yeah, when I'm speaking in swords
Know I should stop myself before it gets worse
But it's never what I do
 
-palisades “hard feelings”
one of my absolute favorite songs. And yea it’s relatable as fuck.