Hi there,
I will not write much, certainly not as much as you did, but I just wanted to express that your analysis touched me a lot, sincerely, and that I agree with almost all of your points.
In fact, you are not the only one to feel this way, and to have experienced what could have happened to you in the past. Actually, I did suffer a lot too.
I just wanted to tell you that, whatever happened to you, I hope this is far behind you, and you manage to taste life as ever.
You know, before leaving this world, someone very important to me said these words: "You are the proof that it is possible to live despite the pain."
You have no idea how these words have helped me, how much this person has allowed me to get myself out of the darkness, and simply to live for the first time.
And as for Amaria, she actually is my favourite character too, for the same reasons as yours.
Thanks a lot for your efforts and your time.
I wish you, with all my heart, the best for you in the future.
Affectionately ~