It's a wrecking hard life you had. And still is now you have the hard times.
I got really interested with this post, and honestly you are a brave person.
You have gone through this problem, and you haven't taking suicide. For me that's something brave there.
I can't help you in real life, but i want to say that you have taking a lot of strong damage and i wish a lot to help you in real life.
Some of the problems can be relateable for me, so i understand completely.
I only hope that the story don't end bad Nutcase. For now thank your friend from me supporting you.
It was a good read, thank you for making this post nutcase.