Takosher

Depression dismantles emotions to the point where it's not even being sad, it's just being empty. I think seeing someone depressed is quite easy... They (generally, please don't take offense) search for a group to fit into to feel acceptance from others, and generally seem more absent in conversation in my opinion. In my long state of being in such a position, I actually chose to recluse, and this points out a major fact. I never cut, attempted any self harm outside of verbally do...

The only time I cut myself was when I realized that if I didn't nobody would take me seriously

Of course they still didn't take me seriously so that sorta failed

I never could bring myself to self harm. I may sound like the dirtiest masochist around for this, but I actually liked experiencing anger. Especially when it was caused by others, It felt like a rush outside normal depression, and I realized that it wasn't my fault I felt that way, but how other's affected me. For years anger was almost like a driving force, an adrenaline rush that I liked.