So originally I was going to offhandedly mention this via the status bar, but imo it's a bit more major then four sentences. Also I can already hear people saying "just do whatever you want" and trust me, Ima do what I want no matter what you say, so just give me some honest opinions to help me realize what I want (even if everyone says "no that's terrible" it may still help me realize I do want to do it)
So now onward to the issue itself. I've been thinking for a while of changing me name, as in not going by Kyra anymore, I'll get to why in a bit. This idea was further fueled by a dream I've been having recently, without going into detail: I'm asked my name, and Kyra doesn't come to mind (neither does my given name for that matter) and it got me thinking more. And then a certain someone talking about their own name recently brought all this to a head
So I figure you're probably wondering why by this point. I mean, Kyra is a great name. It references darkness, I get to be Ame's cat, it goes great with Morgan (which is a perfect middle name), it starts with K (K is a great first letter for names, one of my favorites. Also goes well with my username), and just about everyone knows it by now (I probs get called Kyra more than my given name at this point) And to answer that, I'll have to go back to how I chose it
See, originally, it wasn't even intended for me. I mean, I knew I might end up using it for myself at some point in the future if I decided to go through with living as a girl, but originally it was just the name for my character in Pokemon Y (Who is actually pronounced differently) Plus, it was kind of a rushed decision. I needed something, so I took the first thing that clicked. But it's kind of based in one of my more superficial aspects of who I am (darkness is certainly part of me, but it's mostly an outward thing and hardly reflects all of who I am) and honestly not even all that well thought out (along the way I also looked for names about being cold, snarky, or cynical...)
So while I think it was right at the time, especially since I understood myself so little then, it just feels really hollow now. As a writer who heavily strains the importance of having her character's names reflect who they are, being given the choice to choose my own name is like absolutely massive and important and needs to be done right.
Also Kyra is pretty much impossible to shorten and the only good nickname I've found for myself so far is Pinelope's "Kywy," which is a good play on words, but still not a shorter version of a longer name (names like that are defs my favorites)
So yeh, that's my feelings on it. I think it's P obvious I'll be doing something, but I'd still like some feedback. Hell, I'll even take suggestions if you think you know me well enough to give them. I do have a few ideas myself that I like, though IDK how they'll feel on me (at least one was more intended for an impossible child...)