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Bearadactyl Prime

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Bearadactyl Prime last won the day on January 9 2017

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About Bearadactyl Prime

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    98% Caffeine
  • Birthday 04/24/1993

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  • Alias
    Knight of Ursa
  • Gender
    Female
  • Location
    Danville, Kentucky
  • Interests
    Writer, Gamer, Vocalist, and I like Creepy things.

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  1. Happy Birthday 😄, i hope that you will have a great day 😄🍰

  2. I wanna take the me from six years ago and bury them in the back yard.

  3. For all of those wondering, Halo: Reach on PC is amazing. Buttery smooth 60fps, motion blur removed, and M+KB controls are fantastic and responsive.

  4. Erin and a few Bladestar grunts seem to disappear when walking on certain tiles in Darchlight Cave, it doesn't break anything; but it did cause mild panic when I saw it. See the video below for bug demonstration.
  5. Is it wrong of me to consider just... Dropping a friend because they're too emotionally exhausting for me to handle?

    1. Ojama Yellow

      Ojama Yellow

      commonly considered a toxic relationship. you shouldnt sacrifice your own mental health for someone elses like ever.

  6. I hate being in the middle of a miscommunication-fest, and being the wall for three different people involved.

    I really don't know how much longer I can just... Keep holding up their burdens and trying to fix it before I crack myself.

  7. The Orange League happened, tho.

  8. Anger is a natural, human emotion; and I am so tired of the stigma toward it.

    Get mad online? Get ridiculed. Get mad in public? Get ridiculed. Get mad about anything, from small to large, you get ridiculed and either made fun of or told to calm down.

    It's even worse when it's a situation that you have every right to be angry over. Me? I get mad when "gay," "faggot," "retard/ed," "autistic," "tranny," "trap," or anything similar is used as an insult.

    MY EXISTENCE IS NOT AN INSULT, AND MY EXISTENCE IS NOT A PUNCHLINE.

    People are allowed to get angry. And, if it gets to the point of me or someone yelling at you because you won't stop? Me being angry does not put me in the wrong. YOU are in the wrong for saying the things you did in the first place.

    And, all of this gets so much worse when it's over the internet. Then you get all of the snide, snarky trolls who can and will say whatever they want and press to offend or upset you because they know they have no consequences. Then, they bully and ridicule you for getting mad.

    I am so tired of this. I am so tired of having to repress my emotions, and I am even more tired of being ridiculed when I finally decide enough is enough.

  9. TW: Suicide Mention;
     

     


    So, a few years back; I had kind of hit this point of absolute rock bottom; I made a post about it here and my overall state after a particularly bad moment, not sure if anyone here totally remembers it or if most who were around when I posted it are still even here.

    But, in the post I mentioned where I had gotten to a point where I was ready to take my own life; I had climbed up to the top of a parking garage to jump off but wound up not going through with it.

    Today, I revisited that spot for the first time since. I did it with my current love interest; mostly because she wanted to take pictures from the top of the parking garage, the view is actually beautiful. But, getting to the point; on the exact point that I stood the night I wanted to just jump and end it all, someone had carved in to the concrete "Don't Jump."

    And, I really don't know how to take it. Or, what to feel. I don't know if it was in response to a stranger who saw me that night, or what. But, I have this heavy feeling from it now. It's not a bad feeling, part of me wants to just believe that even some stranger out there cares about a random person hitting rock bottom like that. And, if that's the case, I wish I could find and thank that person.

    I'm in a much better place now, and if anyone wants to ask, yes I'm okay. I'm more okay than I've ever been to be honest.

    It's hard to believe I was ever at that point now; between the abuse of my family, the abusive relationship I was in at the time, and just so many more compounding factors from struggling with my own identity and who I am to no one wanting to actually listen or care about what I wanted; the trauma is still there, but now I'm with people who accept and love me for who I am. Both my love interest, and my new friends. And, I really can't believe the difference it makes just having people willing to let me be who I am and still care about me in the end.

    I kind of feel like I'm just typing this for typing's sake at this point, but, I needed to let it out somewhere.

    1. Raindrop Valkyrie

      Raindrop Valkyrie

      l do remember actually... l was under a different name at that point though. l used ta be known as Hukuna if that sparks any memories, if not no worries~ ❤️ The reason why's not a story that needs ta be told here however. 

      l certainly did and each and every time l saw ya again l was happy ta see ya, happy ta know that at very least you fought through another day. l don't truly deal that well with this subject... it hits a bit close ta home for me and with folks l don't know well it feels hard to find the words. But, l'm glad that person put those words there even if you only saw them so much later... even if they weren't truly for you and perhaps another.

      Further, l'm glad a memory other than the first can exist in that place for you now. One that tells a much different story, and that you found such a thing on the return.~ ❤️

      and lastly, l'm happy you could post this.

      l'm perhaps just some stranger on the internet but... it genuinely fills me with happiness whenever l hear of another like myself who found whatever way they could to climb out of that place. Of another soul that found their way to keep on living~ ❤️ 

  10. My only request for Sword and Shield is to finally get some kind of Poison Legendary or Mythical Pokémon. Game Freak, please, even the types that came after it have them. I am begging you.

    1. Ojama Yellow

      Ojama Yellow

      nihilego and poipole/naganadel i guess

       

      also silvally and arceus but those are cheating so they can fuck right off

    2. Bearadactyl Prime

      Bearadactyl Prime

      Ultra Beast aren't mythic or legendary, Masuda himself said that. :/

  11. I really hate it when a friend thinks you can just... Train a neurological disorder away.

    1. Wolfox

      Wolfox

      you can learn to deal with it a "train" some of the effects it has on you "away", but they're always dormant, always there

    2. Abyssreaper99

      Abyssreaper99

      Unlike neurological disorders, your friends do realize that their stupidity for thinking that can be trained away right?

    3. Wolfox

      Wolfox

      Kinda ironic, I like

  12. Dynamax seems... Weird. Like a universal, temporary Mega evolution. I mean, it might be one way too help the power creep; but we still need a total stat overhaul of basically every Pokémon.

  13. Favourite Pokémon ! GO !

    1. Bearadactyl Prime

      Bearadactyl Prime

      Tie between Muk and Ursaring.

    2. Smooth

      Smooth

      Tanks bud.. hmm I honestly go ursaring between the two but good choices nonetheless.

  14. From what I can gather based on the Discord, Phoenix Rising is more or less officially dead.

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    2. Dreamblitz

      Dreamblitz

      I did a little bit of looking around, at least on the subreddit, and it seems like quite a few devs have left, and in general development has been slow? IDK if it's dead, but it is sort of 'limping along' it seems. Seems like a lot of these newer generation of fangames in development are promising a lot and then aren't producing a ton of product due to development issues or whatever.

    3. Maqqy

      Maqqy

      I searched it too on their discord server. In short, the project is discontinued due to life being life. 

       

      It’s really sad but then again, being able to keep that motivation to push through a project that is non-profit with nothing but love with the series is so commendable. I’m just glad I get to play that small demo of pr. By saying that, it really makes you appreciate games like Reborn more for going through until the end.

    4. Dreamblitz

      Dreamblitz

      Ah, well rip. it definitely seemed promising.

  15. You ever just get the feeling that the world might just not be possible to fix? Like, we're at this point of no return before everything finally collapses in on itself?

    1. Candy

      Candy

      the world has always had its moments of hopelessness but it's always been able to pull through. as long as people keep fighting for a better world that they envision, it'll be able to carry on 🙂

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