Oscarus
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I was a little of a dickhead, I know.
- Not saying or responding to wishes during Christmas' and New Year's seasons
- Being overall silent in the forum
- Being serious and hardly laughing at all
- Forgetting myself and accidentally spoiling plot of the gang just because "it's been public for a while"
- Not giving a fuck about other people's deaths or tragedies (perhaps the most insensitive was my reaction on Joseph Ratzinger's passing, which was like: "Well, I saw that coming...")
In fact, I feel like I'm slowly becoming insensitive, bored and way too straightforward, but in a bad way. Just like Larry.
But there's a difference here - Larry is a fictional character, within a fictional universe, fullon unique personaliies. And I am pretty much real. And... I don't wanna lose the will to live!
Maybe it's just me getting desperate over lack of any human contact ("quite unique" for an introvert since early elementary school), or my life is getting repetitive, or it's real depression... or combination for all.
I know I don't need to say it... well, I guess I just did... maybe because not even my family doesn't want to hear my problems, even daring to say that "depression and all 'mental illnesses' are a figment of lazy humans"
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Do I need to say more?
Maybe it's on me for not having close friends in real life... because I wish NOT to be in the vicinity of vandals, drug dealers and third-rated racketeers.
And- and why am I saying this? Who will care? Are you trying to make a victim out of yourself, Oscar?
...y'know, forget it.
Maybe I shouldn't type it... but, somehow, I have the urge to speak about my problems with others whenever I'm feeling under the weather.
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I don’t know why I’m writing this. I usually give a wide berth to personal advice or comfort talk because many kinder, more empathetic, more eloquent, more reasonable, more insightful people write it better than I can, and I don’t trust myself to strike the right chord.
But here, I guess the worst-case scenario is that you decide that at least you’re not as bad as I am.
First things first: it’s universal of to have issues, and want to talk about them – if not to a person who can understand you, then shouting about it from the rooftops or writing them on the walls…
Second: everyone needs human contact. Even those who used to think they didn’t – I should know, I’m one of them too. It’s not victimhood, just about a need about as deep-rooted as food or shelter. Do you know the rule of threes? About surviving three minutes without air, three days without water and three weeks without food? I read about a fourth “three” lately: three months without social contact.
I hardly know anything about your personal situation, but you might need to cast a wider net, as I struggle to believe that everyone you have ever met was as base as you described.
As far as I understand, the prevalence of mental health issues in students (I think you’re one) has skyrocketed from an already high baseline. So I guess the main takeaway from this part is that you’re not alone, and other people struggle with similar issues.
I wish I had material advice to help you “snap out of it”. I suppose that the best way to prevent your life from being repetitive is to just do something new or unusual – but that’s not that much help. Maybe something outside, one way or another? While you can find a lot of excellent content on youtube or different derivatives on other parts of the internet, these coping mechanisms may be insufficient, perhaps because they’re too passive.
While boredom may be fought (for instance, by seeking out novelty – be they books, shows, topics of interest, content creators on social media, challenges, IRL projects…), I don’t really have any advice on the topic of insensitivity or being straightforward.
Finally, regarding the behaviors that you’re accusing yourself of: I think you should keep in mind that you’re obviously not in the best frame of mind to judge yourself.
Spoilers are a blunder, as are a lack of answer or just acknowledgement to well-wishers (Jan 4th is still completely fine in my book though), but it’s nowhere near the end of the world. “Being serious” is not particularly unpleasant behavior, neither is “being overall silent” – lurking is fine! I have little to say these days too (TOOO is quite stuck, I’m not very good at the game and the rest isn’t really worth talking about).
As to deaths… I think it’s fine to not sink in grief every time someone slightly famous passes away. It’s sad, certainly – but it’s usually not unexpected, nor do I think it should be incapacitating. If they didn’t mean much to you, why should you mourn them any more that the other, less famous, dead of the day? And how could we keep going ahead if we’re mourning each day the dead of this day? So I think it’s fine to be unaffected – so long as you’re considerate to those who aren’t, regardless of the reason.
Happy new year, and I hope that you get better.
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Honestly, seeing people just shove their, very often incorrect, opinions down our throats, and having us - the "normal" part of the fandom - deal with it... It can get really tiring.
I know I should not be that "aggressive" or "offensive", but this community is almost the complete reverse of Twitter, so I think I'll be understood if I say... that copying and overexaggerating statements, then forcing others to believe that, is dumb, boring, and makes the rest of fandom look bad.
And it only gets worse: with the introduction of Legends: Arceus and appearances of the ancestors of "overrated" characters, the situation is worse and worse. I- I won't go into much of a detail, because the chances of spoilering are giant, but trust me - seeing the comments on major platforms like YT, Twitter, etc. in major "channels"...
PewDiePie was right all along, it seems.
That is why I'm quite "active" here - people aren't toxic, the responses and conversations are on acceptabpe level, and there's no cursed images. And, thank Arceus, because while I was watching some fanmade pics on Google Graphics... I won't show it to you, I won't present it even in "SPOILERS" section, just to save your eyes. And your sanity.
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The said remake of my first project is here: enjoy
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Hard work pays off
Dreams come true
Bad times don't last
But bad guys do.
A lesson for you, everyone.
Never give up - if you want, you'll make it.
Whether you favorize light or darkness
There is hope for any of us - there is a chance for a better tomorrow
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Question: Have you tried writing fanfic (or at least sets of some random short stories) from the "Protagonists can talk" bits? Cuz they seem quite a intriguing idea to base.
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After... a very long time, I've decided to present to you my fanfiction about Pokemon Reborn: "Pokemon Reborn - The Highway of Fate"
Here's the link to the "presentation" of it on this forum: [CW: Fanfiction] "Pokemon Reborn - The Highway of Fate" - Creative Works - Reborn Evolved
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I'll say that in advance.
Happy Easter Day, y'all. Be strong, be healthy, be nice, be... yourselves.
And may Lord Arceus assist you in the final battle - as, in a next few days, everything will finally resolve, and I hope, to our benefit.
As for me, I'm gonna disappear for a week or so. First a family gatherings, then hunting Luvdicses, as somehow, don't have many Heart Scales, exams on college, and connecting all loose ends in Reborn Region.
But by then, sayonara~
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You have said that Porygon2 was my weakest Pokemon in the Trick Room team.
And thanks to it I've won my first match lol.
My opponent quit after its' Blizzard froze BOTH Mega Alakazam and Zapdos at once! The did survive both the Blizzard and Stakataka's Rock Slide, but barely, and only because of Aurora Veil. Still, that was hilarious
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I honestly don't know if being creative and having wide imagination is helpful... or hurtful.
On one side, I do have many ideas, but also not enough time nor determination to create those. For example... I was thinking about writing some "off-story" (In an alternative universe where no one dies at the end and everyone's happy) fanfic piece where some characters from Reborn play "King's Game" (Ousama game) together and... there would be a LOT of chaotic things that'd happen. But chaotic in a humurous way, not cringey.
Of course, I'd rather it to be in an "anime-style" because I'm afraid my writing isn't giving the full perspective of the scenery - especially if you're not familiar with the universe in which the story takes place. The reason is because English is just my 2nd laungage, and I still can't develop my linguistic skills to their fullest. I also often make mistakes while typing, and keep repeating the same words 'cause I cannot find alternatives.
And animation would look better than just pure words, duh.
Still...
...what was the point again? Ah, my potential short story.
I don't know if that's a good idea to do, but I honestly want to try and see if that will appeal.
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Happy B-Day, Jade.
I do wish you would never lose the dark flames that ignite your soul and heart, and you stay determined, even in the most unlucky moments of the world and your life.
Soory, I'm not good with wishes
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If you wish, I can send that (and other) short stories on Creative Writing forum.
Do say if you want more of my entertaining bullshit or not
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How, how, how, and I ask HOW did Amethyst and the rest manage to make Fern... FERN, of all characters, a truly likeable guy in a blink of an eye?!
I'd argue that this character was in everyone's Top 3 of Most Hated and Despised Reborn Characters as of V18. Even in V19, he still was hateable; I even cheered for Titania to beat him so badly he wouldn't leave the wheel chair for the next 5 years.
Even though I knew he simply was jealous for me being better than him... every time, which made him hostile towards us, players, that didn't change my opinion about him, as this isn't as good of a reason to be evil as fe.: Sigmund, Phoenix or Elias.
But in postgame, especially during Mew and Mewtwo quests... Those two quests were enough to make me truly appreciate that asshole. Well, not an asshole anymore, I guess. As he was truly beginning to see his mistakes; like he landed in a "hole", as we did early in the story; the roles swapped. Too bad we didn't have the chance to have him beg us to free him, or to leave him; just to secretly return, proving our previous action a mere trolling.
Or when he dies (sorta; I guess petrification by Mew/Mewtwo can be described as death), only to be "resurrected" by umbral energy, he finally says what he truly thinks... and dear Arceus, if I knew earlier that he........
After everything, after all the adventures and plot screws, I think Fern truly deserves an Gym Leader and Elite Four spot later on!
But... Now I feel like a dick, honestly. To think that I planned to... well... I guess I'm not as good writer as I think I am...
They say that I am creative and know how to bring the essence out of character. Alas, that is not true. I still have much, much to learn...
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I've just went through DLC 4 of Pokemon Xenoverse, and it (alongside V19 of Reborn and V13 of Rejuvenation) got me thinking...
And now I feel... dissatisfaction. I'm not depressed or anything, but a bit sad, seeing how creative many, many creators are able to produce things that can easily be called "masterpieces" (be that designs, characters, stories, music, etc.), that I feel nothing more than an ant, in comparison to those angels.
I might have ideas... But I lack skills to present them to the others. Plus I'm afraid they won't be nearly half as good as what others did. My aspirations for life is to change the world for better, or at least have people being more happy and satisfied with their lives, so they could continue pushing forward without any regrets...
But no matter what I would create, it's gonna pale to what others have done before me. They are masters, and I feel like some damned artist-wannabe who wants to follow their idols.
I'm... not depressed, by any means, but just thinking about it has me feel useless in comparison. It's not like it happened for the first time - it's been happening for years now, but it might be the very first time I openly say about this to other humans (because I can't call those with whom I'm forced to live with 'humans'), as the previous times I was simply complimenting others' work, because I feel obligated to praise the work I adore.
Do you have the same "problems" as me?
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To my knowledge, Elemental Fangs (Fire, Ice, Thunder) are the only attacks to have TWO independent effects on the opponent: inflicting status conditions and flinching (but there's only 1% chance of that happening (since both effects have 10% chance), assuming opponent hasn't moved yet and it isn't immune to inflictable status conditions). All of the others have only one, one at once (like Tri Attack) or simply none.
And no, I don't count moves like Flare Blitz or Infernal Parade because one of the effects (in this case burning) affect opponent, but the other (recoil or doubled damage against opponent with status condition) is affecting the user or the move itself.
And while there are moves that also can inflict two different effects while being independent on each other, like Toxic Thread, those are status moves, so doesn't count.
And I think it's wild, especially when considering that Fire, Thunder and Ice Fangs have existed since Generation 4. You would think they have done something similar before but nope, they haven't.
I hope Gen 9 will bring at least one move with the same aspect, as it appears astounding.
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The more I am committed to creating a fanmade game... The more I realize how big of a chore it is!
It's not only story-telling, character- and city-designing, creating teams, and coding... but also balancing, upgrading the AI, multichecking, putting things on the map, working around barriers and anti-hacks, and many... MANY MORE!
While I do wish to present to you our (because I won't be the only one to create a game, duh~) project, I realize that it's not going to be easy.
Also, a bit of a personal question: do you prefer classical, 8-Gym version with main series mechanics and average-length plot (either 7+ or 13+), or Reborn-styled 18-Gym version with Fields, very long and 16+ plot?
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Children cry because they do not understand
~ me, basically every time I see pointless complaints on the Internet
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Man... How I wish to be a part of Pokemon Online League when it was still existing. It looked so fun!
Either as a challenger or as a Gym Leader, doesn't matter - it would love to interact with all the League Representatives and/or fellow challengers, while honing my skills.
I... I do realize that I'd be crushed, pummeled and tenderized by basically anyone back then because I SUCKED back then (my first even Pokemon gameplay; in FireRed; consisted of 4 Flying types, 2 of them being x4 weak to Rock, and movesets like they were taken from Gen 1, like Charizard knowing Flamethrower, Fire Blast and Blast Burn... plus I didn't care about stats of Pokemon, only moves, and back then status moves for me were more than useless)
But now, being much more experienced and seemingly more talented... I think... I could have a chance of getting at least half of the Badges, with a glimpse of defeating Champion, and maybe, JUST MAYBE, becoming Gym Leader myself.
The last part woulda be very fun; like an soccer superstar on giant stadium filled to brim, people would want to see and interact with me, and have a shot at challenging myself.
Of course, it's not about fame or glory, but having the opportunity to meet many new, interesting people and having the chance to become stronger.
Don't worry, I'll be keeping kayfabe alive. I'm not a loose cannon.
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Seriously, gender balancing is truly awful.
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Now I've just realized how little 4 MB of attachments are.
I've send designs of a few characters for my fanmade game to Evi, and that took over a MB. How am I supposed to show her the remaining 50+ without forcing to delete the other ones?
And also why that limit is so low? I get that in order to not trash the place with scraps, they put it, but... 4 MB is so little...
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Actually, 50 MB is well above the usual attachment size limit for email as well (including gmail).
This being said, I agree that 4 MB of storage are easily spent when pictures are involved… and I don’t know why. Maybe something with the company hosting the website (if there’s even one)? I don’t think the terms offer unlimited storage and 4 MB times many thousands of people becomes quite a lot… but that’s still in the range of a single (good) external hard drive, so it shouldn’t be expensive…
For your specific problem, I recommend using more specialized (free) cloud services such as Google Drive or Dropbox. I know that on Google, you get at least 1 GB (maybe 10? I don’t remember) of free storage, which you may organize however you wish – and you can share access to certain folders with other people.
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Oh shit. I've forgotten about your B-Day! How could I-...?!
Well, we haven't known each other for a long time, yet I believe that we might share a few commons with each other. Also, I am constantly blown away by your creativity, and ability to create (many things are incredibly broken beyond belief, though, but concepts are without a flaw).
People like you, and you as well, are the reason why I haven't decided to give up on everything and end it permanently... I am thankful that you, and others, exist, because you're making me believe there's a chance for humanity...
I'm being late, yes, for almost 2 weeks, but... All the best for you, Evi ;-)
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A question... Is peace and harmony in life too much to ask for?
I know this is not quite the place to ask, but I honestly can't find a better place, especially since my "friends" are apparently defending the bullying-and-toxic kind of behaviors everyone around me loves to present in public and in private life.
I honestly could write down an entire article about my life situation... But right now I'm feeling under the weather (and not even Pokemon Scarlet/Violet - perhaps the best canon Pokemon games in terms of plotline - lightened my mood), so maybe one day, one day...
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It is a really tough question to answer; but what could assist would be journalling. Journalling can help quite a bit in dealing with hardships and helps you to strategize on what route to take so that you can tackle a situation. It can assist you to chisel you into the person you want to be one day. A suggestion is also to use a self-coaching model (you will see on google) to assess the situations, so you can form strategies that are suitable to you and what feels right to you
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For everyone that've through Grusha has facial hair (hairy beard, goatie, Dali's mustache, or at least some stubble)...
I have some bad news.
He's clean shaven.
And looks a little less feminine when his full face is shown.
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I've seen some content from Legends Arceus (because I won't be buying game since I don't have Switch and don't intend to have; but the game is great), and I have only one thing to say...
Now I know from who did Jaern take his egocentric point of view and sense of fashion...
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I don't know what was harder: creating 3 Fields about 3 Gods which are similiar to each other yet different enough and all of them making sense... or editing and posting them here without any mixing and editing problems. Oh well...
But... please, here they are:
https://www.rebornevo.com/forums/topic/58553-pokemon-legends-arceus-field-effect-13/
https://www.rebornevo.com/forums/topic/58554-pokemon-legends-arceus-field-effect-23/
https://www.rebornevo.com/forums/topic/58555-pokemon-legends-arceus-field-effect-33/
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Apparently, I can't do any creative projects without overanalyzing everything possible.
For the remake of my first project here, I've written over 1000 words describing... only one of Ame's Pokemon in the "in-game" team. Imagine how long it would've been describing others!
For the record, I did include "alternative" sets for that Pokemon - they won't have the stiff only-4-moves sets, but also they might have alternative moves for some cases, like when I couldn't decide what attacking move would work the best, so I gave a few of them in one slot so one could select which one is more useful overall.
I ain't a competitive expert - if so, I do it for fun. But I like watching False Swipe Gaming, which have taught me more about it. They also do that what I'm intending to do:
In this potential set for "ES Killer" Arceus-Normal in Ubers thier of Gen 5 metagame, in the 3rd move they were given either one-turn medium-strong Shadow Claw, or very powerful yet two-turn Shadow Force. In the 4th... just whatever suited the most against metagame; whenever it is Psyhical, Special or Status move.
So I'll be doing it too; if having problems, just select a few options and comment them. So... Yeah, it's gonna be VERY long.
But you seem to like that kind of complicated shit. After all, it is forum of Pokemon Reborn... This fandom LOVES complicated shit. So I think it will be at least decent; definitely better than the previous one.
