Juniper

I don't have a huge amount of time before leaving and being in a car for 5 hours so I might forget something but first of all, Thank you all for taking the time to read this. And thanks for offering me help. I'm okay right now but, I'll keep it in mind if I need to talk to someone in the future Now for individual things! Snow: I actually read that last night but I fell asleep so I didn't reply, sorry x_x But, it made me smile. wooh, I have a skill! King Ryan: I hadn't considered some of what you said, it's actually given me some stuff to think about in relation to just enjoying my life Can't hurt to try right? Also, kung-fu panda quotes ftw! PBX5: I remember when I found my cat dead when I was younger.. losing pets sure isn't fun. But, yes, I think I can trust you guys Sky: You did help. You helped make me feel that someone cares. I'll try not to bottle up my feelings in the future Mde and shing: (Sorry for putting you both in the same one) Thank you for your concern, I hope I get the support too In general again, I'm glad that people relate to how I feel (maybe not glad, that sounds awful..) ok more like, it's nice to know that people can understand how i feel! yes, That sounded nicer. So, thank you all again for caring. You guys are the best.

Space mountain

Tea party

Buzz Lightyear

So, this is me venting. I wanted to put it in a place where it wouldn't bother people but that had enough space for me to type all I need to say and so that I can know that somewhere, my thoughts are written (or typed) and solid as opposed to another long depressing train of thought that leads to an inevitable headache. This should be something you can read if you're particularly bored and I'll try not to make it too dreary. So, I'm tired. Right now, I'm exhausted just as I have been for the past 2 weeks and basically all summer. When there's school, it's fine, it takes my mind of things, I don't have time to think but Summer is lonely and I overthink things and I worry about things and I stay up too late unable to sleep and that lack of sleep causes mood swings and emotional weakness, yada-yada, nothing you haven't heard before. Perhaps some people won't understand or relate to this and think it's simply a matter of putting away the damn computer and sleeping. It's not really. I think about my life and all the things I did wrong that caused me problems and I think of why I did them and I think of who's to blame for them and it's mostly me. But anyway, a big one is the future. I worry about providing for myself and finding a job and a place to live and paying bills and menial boring crap like that and I worry about it because I am an inconsistent person. What I mean by that is I change my mind all too often, I change moods quickly, it can be frustrating for other people. I don't expect that it'll be easy to maintain a job or a relationship or school or bills with my kind of mindset. I'll lose interest in it eventually. The difference being that losing interest in things now is just depressing whereas in the future, it could be life-altering to the point I might really harm myself. I think about it from time to time but I know it's just me being negative and I know that I'll be happy again in a while. Heck, I'll probably be fine tomorrow when I wake up. but it won't last. before I know it, I'll be like this again. I have friends because I don't tell them these things, I don't let on that anything is wrong, I just act cool and all. And I buy into it and enjoy myself when I'm with them. when I have company I'm conscious of myself and my surroundings but when I'm alone I sort of day-dream a little and get lost in my thoughts and it often causes me to end up like I feel now. I hate that I'm such an insecure person that I actually need to write this out to feel better. I don't feel in control of my emotions and I feel like a stupid kid and I just want to grow the fuck up and leave all this self-doubt behind. It doesn't help that I have very important exams next year. there's literally no way I'm gonna be able to study if I feel like this.Speaking of which, I don't think I have yet described precisely how I feel. Basically, I feel useless. like I can't do anything of any benefit to anyone. I'm just a no-good hindrance. I know it's not true. I have a multitude of talents but I feel like I'm worthless. I just want everyone to forget I ever existed. Yet here I am, making a big deal of it. Pathetic. This is ridiculously immature of me. I get bothered and agitated too easily. The smallest things will piss me off. Like someone forgetting to reply to a message I sent or someone misunderstanding something I'm doing and getting in the way. Occasionally, I'm calm and collected about it but then sometimes I just want to kill someone.Not literally. Then I'd have to feel guilty about their family and all. It pisses me off that some people (myself included) can be so goddamn care-free and not consider how other people feel about things. It annoys me that nobody really understands me (once again, myself included) and nobody cares enough to try. I wish I had some kind of machine that would just tell me how I should feel in certain situations because I'm sick of having to think about emotions. It's a worthless waste of my time and a pointless exercise. Speaking of exercise, I have lost the motivation to do that. earlier in the summer, I was motivated. I think it was actually because of an anime I watched. Anyway, I went for runs and practiced my kickboxing and basketball but now, I have no motivation at all. Very occasionally, I'll get pissed off and go and punch the crap out of something before realising that I have no stamina anymore and I can't bloody breathe. I guess that'll get better once school starts up again because of physical education class. Writing all this garbage actually made me feel a lot better. There's quite a lot more on my mind but I'll save it. I have a head ache. If anybody actually read all of this, congratulations. you now have an idea of how I feel. It might be unimpressive but I struggle with this, despite its simplicity. If you harbor any degree of dislike towards me for posting this, save it. I don't want to hear it right now.

Major Tom.

I'm just joking. I'be never actually played it

(Itwasme, sorrynotsorry)

8/10 ( I don't know what it is) Everyone is receiving regards because I'm a terribly friendly person Yaaaaaaaay.. Also, nobody ever seems to look that closely congratulations, hawkeye

I don't think much about the phillipines. I know a guy from there, He's my brother's friend, He seems perfectly nice So for lack of larger sample data, My impression of people from the phillipines are 100% nice. Why do the Idea and aesthetics of Shedinja seem/look awesome but in practice he's way too vulnerable?

5/10 for consistency.

T3RR4*

I remembered that I forgot to say welcome. Here enjoy some Jim Carrey, he's my favorite actor. welcome :3

If I can't run this I'm going to learn how to program a laptop to explode and then do it to this pathetic machine. And then regret having wasted so much time, effort and money.

I think that all of the elite 4 will run away when it's time to find them, each hiding behind a complex puzzle and then when you find all of them, they'll all be kidnapped and you have to rescue them but then you get warped to an alternate dimension in which you have to let them beat you and then you warp back and have to beat them twice to make up for it but before you fight them the second time, they're all killed by team meteor and you have to go and find all the replacement elite fours scattered across the map and then when you find them all, you can challenge them and then you get to the champion but it was actually T3RR4 somehow so you have to go into the computer again but then Meteor turns it off while you're inside and you get trapped and have to collect 100 different candy canes in order to escape. Then after all that, you get killed and Meteor wins. The end.

You mean to tell me.. I have better internet than someone else??? 0_0

This was my last pokémon x.x

He'll never make it. Excalibur will surpass god before him BAKA

Well.. I'm sick of pokémon X already (had it for 3 days) Might as well try this out now A good advertising pitch for Utorrent, "Utorrent download: Now in torrent form!" EDIT: 24.5 GB Almost 1 GB done Only took 15 minutes.. Quick math = 375 minutes = nearly 6.5 hours x.x

Sometimes big people need two posts. Like black star. Black Star needs unlimited posts.

Spoiler! x.x lol I haven't gotten past the first few yet