I feel the same way towards life as many other members do. I believe if you just get involved with something that you can relate with other people, you'll eventually become your own person (I mean, you already made it to the forums). And if you need anyone to talk, I'm pretty sure everyone here is open to talk with you about whatever is on your mind and you can make some good friends on top of that.
And do you have anymore of those... animes?