Well, if you say it's alright then I wouldn't mind talking. I'll get to taht in a moment
I live in Ohio, winters here are P nasty. Mostly because they're super windy and not so much because they're actually cold. I had one point last January where literally my entire right arms was blue after being outside fully bundled up for under an hour. My mom buys me handwarmers so it's not the worst thing for me to catch the bus, mostly just the 10-20 minute wait to transfer buses is bleh. Also I absolutely abhor heat, which is part of what makes this so terrible since I generally love the winter.
NEways. On to other things
First off I have some kind of unspecified social disorder (which is part of the cause for my anxiety I think) that makes it extremely hard for me to formulate my thoughts into words and convey ideas to others. Also makes me struggle to understand when they try to convey ideas to me (like when my mom is trying to explain a math concept and I'm just not getting it and she gets mad and thinks I'm pretending not to understand to upset her) I also struggle to comprehend emotions and I have a tendency to come of as very rude without any intention of doing so (and of course perceive things as rude when they're not intended as so either, I'm like a walking internet)
Then I have relatively minor OCD issues that are currently undiagnosed, though I have spoken to both my doctor and psychiatrist about them so hopefully that'll change soonish. And when I say "relatively minor," I more mean there's few things that set me off than that the anxiety I get from my OCD isn't bad. I don't feel like trying to provide too many examples, but lets just say that until about a year ago my fingernails were constantly bleeding from me biting them (I now only bite them when I'm focusing on something and can't consciously stop myself... Which is a lot, but not enough to make me bleed... often)
I'm relatively certain I have some variation of schizophrenia. At least that seems like the best explanation for the voices in my head. My grandfather has it and I believe there's a hereditary component to it which adds to the likelihood of me having it. I don't wanna talk to much about the disorder since I could be wrong. But the symptoms aren't exactly fun to deal with, though one of them has proven useful. I mostly just get constantly berated by like seven different people (though thankfully not all at once) for whatever I do. The one at least generally yells at me for things I know are wrong anyways (I used to honestly think she was my conscience, lol) One of them is like super violent and whenever I do anything nice she gets really pissy. One is super paranoid and a compulsive liar and is always suggesting that things I believe aren't real and trying to convince me to lie in scenarios where there's literally no benefit to it. Etc.
Another thing I've been talking to my psychiatrist about that we have yet to actually diagnose is ADD. Apparently there's a type of ADD that causes you to be hyper-focused instead of easily distracted or something. I honestly don't remember what he said, I was too focused on the song I was listening to at the time while he was explaining it. But it's likely I have that
And lastly there's the fact that I'm a trans girl. Which isn't exactly something I feel needs a diagnosis but I was keeping things short before so I didn't mention it. That's one of the main causes for my depression and easily the hardest thing for me to live with. I'd honestly rather not talk about it super publicly but I have no issue talking about it to anyone who's curious so feel free to PM me
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Whew. None of this is an especially large secret but it's still nice to be able to get them off my chest all at once for at least a little