Was about to post a paragraph, but this pretty much sums up my opinion.
I feel like ranting about my mistake over the summer that I should forget about and accept my loss, but I just can't.
One of my closest friends, who's this scientific genius that's going places in life, was offered a full scholarship to Caltech, her dream university. She would have been a senior this year but she could graduate early because of her having enough credits. Obviously, nobody would pass up on this offer, but she had to get my opinion of her decision. I was delighted for her, but I couldn't let go. Deep down, I probably have feelings that I don't want to realize myself. So one night, we were hanging out when she put a serious face on and asked me what I thought about her leaving. I was not prepared and ended up sounding like a complete jerk by telling her to do whatever she wanted. She got pissed and started to nag at me about how I was too carefree, being one of her best friends and all. I didn't even get a chance to fix my error in choice of words because she went home after that. I've known her for a while, but that was the first time she was genuinely mad at me and not willing to hear my second thoughts. That was about a month ago and we haven't talked ever since. Now, she's probably working on a research paper or something at home as she prepares to leave for Cali. I've lost all form of contact with her and when I tried to visit, her parents just told me to leave. I know I fucked up hard, but come on, at least give me a second chance.