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(23:41:04) +Kirito: The mexican word of the day is Wheelchair! (23:41:17) [sU]Silver: La illa de reudas? (23:41:21) +Kirito: Nope! (23:41:23) [sU]Silver: *la silla de reudas? (23:41:27) +Kirito: Nope! (23:41:35) [sU]Silver: It's something along those lines. (23:41:37) +Kirito: Me and Juan only have one taco, but that's okay, Wheelchair. immediately afterwards !!! (23:45:37) [sU]Silver: You know what I want? (23:45:44) [sU]Silver: A USB shaped like a taco. (23:46:13) +Nirvash: a cobra USB would be sweet. (23:46:41) [sU]Silver: "What's that in your USB port?" (23:46:46) +Nirvash: a snake (23:46:51) +Nirvash: I HAVE HAD IT (23:46:54) [sU]Silver: "Just a fucking cobra with my schoolwork in it, no big deal" (23:46:55) +Nirvash: WITH THESE MOTHERFUCKING SNAKES (23:47:01) +Nirvash: IN MY MOTHERFUCKING LAPTOP (23:47:04) [sU]Silver: ON THIS MOTHERFUKCING PLANE (23:47:06) +Nirvash: EVERYBODY SIDDOWN (23:47:07) [sU]Silver: oh (23:47:11) +Nirvash: I'M ABOUT TO OPEN SOME FUCKING FILES (23:47:20) [sU]Silver: LOL

Ohhhh I didn't even notice anything that wasn't the past three posts. Shiri first. I know that uh.... issue entirely too well? It isn't right at all, though. *brohugs* Just get through things, don't let people see you care. Even freely admit to it and have false confidence if you feel like it. Now I uhm want to do my own rant. Ever had one of those days where you're just a train wreck on two legs? I've realized that feeling happy and having a good time comes at a price. Every time in the padt... year or so that I've been genuinely happy or had a good time, it's come back to bite me in the ass and I get all mopey and shit later. I don't know why. But it's just weird like that... Also, an issue I guess I've had for a while. The times when I just realize how much I really don't fit in around here. Most of the server is 16+, and then I'm the kid in the corner trying to make that unnoticeable, which goes pretty well most of the time. But then comes along one or two people and some comments or remarks and then reality just... hits you in the face, I guess. Feeling left out and unwanted, even though that isn't the case. Then feeling like I'm acting like a child, and that contributes to the "They don't really want me around, they just act like it in an attempt to not hurt my feelings", a situation I know all to well. I was always really the kid that people only kept me around out of pity. And then... family issues. It seems a day doesn't go by with my stepmom and I going at it. Sometimes it's better than others, sometimes she threatens to actually hit me, or throw me out of the house. I think the worst that it's gotten was that she locked me out during dinner. But if it isn;t that, it's her and my dad, arguing about something I've done. "He's so fucking unresponible!" "You didn't even raise your own child right!" "I do everything for him while you sit on your ass all day!". Things like that. Or hearing them all talk about me and my issues behind my back. Or hearing her tell my grandparents and aunt--whom I consider more of parents than my own--about anything, making me seem like fucking demon spawn and she's the innocent one being used. And then my mom, who has anger problems that might rival Ashka's Mother's... as soon as she has to do something on her own, she freaks out. She screams, threatens, and it just gets worse every time. Then people. I get that I'm not perfect or anything, that I'm out there and weird, but I don't want a shoebox full of things people say about me on the last day, handed to me by one person that I sort of thought didn't care that I was a little odd. But nope! Various notes on basically what people say about me--though I will say it's neatly put together and actually quite interesting to read, it does hurt. Part of me doesn't want to care, or at least try not to--as per usual, that wouldn't work because I can tell myself I don't care all I want, but in the end I do. Maybe it's worth it to try and be oblivious to it though. Or at least act like it. also um i get that people joke but sometimes it actually does hurt qq

trust me, it's one of the best surprises you'lll have. give him money... quite a bit.

Get a smartphone, you can emulate all three of the first generations on it for free, getting the DS games is on yourself. But welcome! Leave your sanity in some corner of the Byfdfasfdtryexion Wasteland, some poor helpless trainer is bound some use of it.