Oscarus

You have said that Porygon2 was my weakest Pokemon in the Trick Room team. 

And thanks to it I've won my first match lol. 

My opponent quit after its' Blizzard froze BOTH Mega Alakazam and Zapdos at once! The did survive both the Blizzard and Stakataka's Rock Slide, but barely, and only because of Aurora Veil. Still, that was hilarious

I have some dilemmas. I want to restart playing Gen 7 Doubles in online competitive... but I'm tad afraid that I can't build truly proper Trick Room team 

Could you... give your own opinions or something about it? 

If there is no specific stat in IV section, that stat has automatically 31 IVs

Dusclops (M) @ Eviolite  

Ability: Pressure  

EVs: 252 HP / 4 Def / 252 SpD  

Calm Nature  

IVs: 0 Atk / 0 Spe  

- Trick Room  

- Will-O-Wisp  

- Night Shade  

- Bulldoze  

Camerupt (M) @ Cameruptite  

Ability: Solid Rock  

EVs: 252 HP / 252 SpA / 4 SpD  

Quiet Nature  

IVs: 30 HP / 1 Atk / 30 SpA / 1 Spe  

- Heat Wave  

- Earth Power  

- Ancient Power  

- Hidden Power [Grass]  

Stakataka @ Assault Vest  

Ability: Beast Boost  

EVs: 252 HP / 252 Atk / 4 SpD  

Lonely Nature  

IVs: 14 Def / 0 Spe  

- Gyro Ball  

- Rock Slide  

- Stomping Tantrum  

- Zen Headbutt  

Milotic (F) @ Leftovers  

Ability: Competitive  

EVs: 252 HP / 252 SpA / 4 SpD  

Quiet Nature  

IVs: 0 Atk / 0 Spe  

- Ice Beam  

- Scald  

- Dragon Pulse  

- Protect  

Porygon2 @ Eviolite  

Ability: Trace  

EVs: 252 HP / 252 SpA / 4 SpD  

Quiet Nature  

IVs: 0 Atk / 0 Spe  

- Trick Room  

- Tri Attack  

- Thunderbolt

- Blizzard  

Tyranitar (M) @ Weakness Policy  

Ability: Sand Stream  

EVs: 252 HP / 252 Atk / 4 SpD  

Brave Nature  

IVs: 0 Spe  

- Rock Slide  

- Stomping Tantrum  

- Protect  

- Fire Punch  

My usual leads are Dusclops and Tyranitar. 

On round one, Tyranitar uses Protect while Dusclops sets up Trick Room (thanks to being immune to Fake Out, that makes it easier to do) 

Then, usually, on 2nd turn I'd use Bulldoze to slow down Tyranitar, and activate Weakness Policy, doubling the Attack. Minimal Attack investment is necessary to minimize done damage to it. Fire Punch on Tyranitar is to ensure OHKO'ing Pokemon like Kartana, Ferrothorn and some variations of Celesteela. 

But if opponent's lead Pokemon is Incineroar, they usually, after Fake Out, use Parting Shot. Then I'd swap out Tyranitar for Milotic, who with Competitive would have it's Special Attack increased by 3 stages total. Bulky and very offensive Water type would get its' job done. 

Stakataka's EV/IV spread might seem a little weird, but that's because to have its' Attack higher than Defense, therefore having Beast Boost boost its' Attack, not Defense. Unchecked, it might wreck havoc. 

Mega Camerupt has that specific IV set to be able to use Hidden Power Grass - for wider coverage. Alternatively, I could use moves boosting its' Special Attack like Growth. But I wanted some Grass attacks to deal with bulky and annoying Water types, who also could threaten it. 

Porygon2 is another Trick Room setter, but instead of being pure Support like Dusclops, its' offensive Pokemon, with moves to spread annoying status conditions, and to deal with unexpected and overall irritating Pokémon like Celesteela. Alternatively, I could have it run Toxic, but let's see how that set works. 

If you have any changes, don't be afraid - I'll take any critic. 

Okay, I don't know why I was waiting for this... But I wanted to share with you my experience with V19 Boss Fights. 

Pay in mind... That there WILL BE spoilers. So don't click if you haven't finished main story, kay~? 

I was using rotating teams for this:

Ah, also if you know the themes for E4 Battles and Final Lin Battle, please let me know. 

Of all the "sudden" things that happen in Lin postgame of V19, perhaps the most shocking was...

Apparently, history changes also. 

And... Ay, it is one hell of a change. 

From what I've seen, simply adding Ace to the story isn't the only change, nor is it the most massive one. Reborn has experienced colossal story overhaul. Like-... Lin appearing MUCH EARLIER than usual, a few key dialogue being changed, also characters changing sometimes drastically (we literally see Cal still being a hot-head asshole, and somehow I doubt that just "few days" in Apophyll would change him that much; unless Kiki also uses electroshock therapy... but then his hair should me more spiky, hm~) 

I've gotta create a new save file and try the new story, as this seems awesome. 

But... Yeah, I will need to revision my fanfiction yet again, shit... 

Perhaps I can connect old and new versions with my antics to create wholy unique storyline - as I really need to stride from key-writing. Story might seem stale overall

In fact, my plans for Rejuvenation fanfic have the story be COMPLETELY changed - only the course of major events is the same, and what happens in-between is... you'll see... someday... 

Oh, I should add one thing. 

I love the overall design modernization; both in locations, and in characters. In the latter, I've discovered things that I had no idea previously-, like... Radomus was wearing a mask in his Gym Battle? I have always thought that it was just a shadow; like in the anime sometimes you see someone's face being covered in darkness, often by the hair. But now, when I know... it does look cool. 

Most of the time, the VS Sprites changed minimally - they are simply more detailed. But there were more driastic changes. I haven't seen all of them, so~... 

Well, the most impressive change was for Aster and Eclipse - they actually now are different and unique from mere Grunts. Also Charlotte; now a super-cutie (she might burn me for that, but that's okay - I'm used to taking a whoopin'), Samson (hot, no homo), ZEL/Zero (those "almost-snake" pupils... wow), Bennett (from nerd to friendly, edgy anime antagonist) - and maybe more, but I don't know. 

But... If I may be honest, there is one VS Sprite change that I don't like. This is just a opinion... But I've gotta say it because oh my Arceus... 

And that is Parson Elias' VS Sprite. 

His "Agent" sprite us completely all right, but the one used in the Citadel... 

...He looks like a desperate old despot on crack... which might be the most accurate description of him, perhaps... 

But that face will be haunting in my dreams for a long time... 

Overall, designs were miles better that in V18. Props to you, devs 

I'm baaaaack~

If there was a possibility to send it voicelines, I would sing for you. But there's none, so sorry. I cannot sing anyways. 

I am proud to announce that I have completed main story of Pokemon Reborn (and just main story, I haven't touched post-game yet) 

I'm actually suprised it has taken me so little time; even when I was "speedruning" (reading only story dialogues and important character's adds) - maybe because I was already prepared with everything. Or because I had quite good strategies

Anyways, I'll be sharing my thoughts about V19 with you. Oh, to say it beforehand: DON'T click "Spoiler" labels if you haven't played through the main game yet nor do you not know anything about V19 yet. Just don't complain that I haven't warned you.

Everything here is from Reshiram Route. So if you know alternative events from Zekrom Route, feel free to write it to me (just label it with "Spoiler" so others won't see those if unwanted).

If you wanna say something about it, DON'T FORGET about putting this in Spoiler part. 

Because... That'd be a shame if someone had accidentally spoiled themselves something just because someone was careless, agreed?

I'll say that in advance. 

Happy Easter Day, y'all. Be strong, be healthy, be nice, be... yourselves. 

And may Lord Arceus assist you in the final battle - as, in a next few days, everything will finally resolve, and I hope, to our benefit. 

As for me, I'm gonna disappear for a week or so. First a family gatherings, then hunting Luvdicses, as somehow, don't have many Heart Scales, exams on college, and connecting all loose ends in Reborn Region. 

But by then, sayonara~

With V19 starting... very soon, I think it's time for big bang preparations.

Especially for that Lin, which is actually the only battle I'm truly concerned for:

• Saphira - it's basically Dragon Tamer vs Dragon Tamer; I am already prepared 
• PULSE Mr. Mime - I bet this is a very defensive Pokemon, so it shouldn't pose any real threat 
• PULSE Clawitzer - the reverse or Mr. Mime; a speedy glass cannon (I hope), so if I get a chance to boost, it can be defeated rather easily... assuming it doesn't get a priority move 
  • I say that, assuming those are controlled by Sigmund and Sirius respectively; which I think is logical - those two are counterparts of sorts 
• Elite Four - they may pose a threat, but after reading various theories, and seeing potential teams, I might create a team for them from the Pokemon I already have (assuming we could change teams between battles; if not... I just create the most universal team I can; I'm quite good at it) 

But Lin, especially Darkium Z Hydreigon and Arceus, those scare me. Especially when considering they will have PULSE2 or other cheating bullshit. 

However! I do have the strategy; which involves turning the advantage of her Field... against her. 

With how she likes to overpower and break through everything at ease, she is no match for the strategic mastermind such as myself. 

I will make her sweat, cry and bleed... until I hear her crumbling and begging for mercy.

We... are in endgame. 

And it's high time to put the end to her plans... and entire existence. 

I will futfill Ame's last request, to make Reborn great again... by eliminating that witch once, and, for, all... 

I have seen on YouTube comments bringing up how remakes of Pokemon Colosseum would look like. 

And they have many interesting ideas... but one guy have brought up a~ rather terryfing suggestion. 

That we could face Evice, in battling rules of XD... which could Mega Evolve his Tyranitar... 

I love Tyranitars, but I'm not ready for Shadow Mega Tyranitar (assuming Mega Evolving Shadow Pokemon is possible... which I think may if Pokemon will be forced into absolute obedience, and/or it actually is close to Trainer) 

P.S.: Only now have I realized that Evice's ace is Tyranitar. I was so hyping up when discovering Xenoverse's Victor has Tyranitar X as his ace, that I've completely forgotten about that beast. 

That, and also because Skill Swap Slaking have clouded my memories from anger and salt. 

What is Pokemon Trainers' favorite way of killing enemies...? 

Sometimes, I am actually terrified of what my brain is capable of. 

While creating some plot for my fanmade game, there is one specific, old dialogue that now has gotten my attention. Especially, this part:

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(...) But then... everything changed 30 years ago. More specifically, during the day of the the fifteen anniversary of my Championship reign. 

A mysterious event occurred in the neighboring region, west of Sacroc. At the time, no one was certain who, or what, had been responsible... yet the damage was truly terryfing, with the region being split into four. The causalities also were massive, both in infrastructure... and in humans... 

...oh, forgive me <player> - recalling those memories are gruesome... in fact, one of my closer friends was one of the victims of it, as she had tried to-... No, she wouldn't accept me... 

(...)

{the moment when he tries to control himself} 

(...)

Believe it or not, <player>, the catastrophe was about to strike this region too. Fortunately, it has stopped before going deeper into land, with it only managing to grasp the western coast, tearing over the absorbed piece of land between Grand Strait and Viadra River, creating currently known Viadra Strait. People and Pokemon of Sacroc Region were thanking Gods for their assistance and protection... the same couldn't be said about our friends. 

Of course, we did our best to assist them in regaining the region... But as of right now, it still is separated. We were doing our best, but it wasn't enough. Which, if we think about it <player>, is the perfect analogy of my entire reign. 

They have worked around it, however, and despite region still being in four, it is more united than it has ever been. Yet, the events of it are still engraved into minds of both regions, which are currently known as "The Great Calamity". 

(...) {and then he talks about times after his retirement from Champion spot} 

I bet some of you know where this is going, but step by step. The man talking in here is Vultus - in-game, he's Supervisor of Sacroc Pokemon League, advisor of Prince (that is title, not name), and former Sacroc Grand Champion, having perhaps one of the longest reigns of all Grand Champions in the known Pokemon world (both canon and fanmade), reigning for 40 years before ultimately retiring, 5 years before the events of "Pokemon Heaven and Hell" {he's in game 89 years old, btw}. 

That dialogue (used in main post-game quest) was created, according to my sources, in February 2021 (or earlier, because there is written a last date of editing on it). So then I have known about Reborn... but not Rejuvenation. And, the region neighboring with Sacroc... might actually be Aevium. 

According to KingInfernal's "Geography and Timeline of Reborn and Aevium (which is VERY BASED on canon data and devs' claims), Storm-9 had split Aevium into four sub-regions 40 years before events of Rejuvenation. Now, math lesson

• Rejuvenation has begun 21 years after the events in Kanto Region. 
• Which means Storm-9 (also known as "The Calamity") happened 18 years before Kanto (and not 19 years, because @KingInfernal has counted Kanto events as "Year 0", then has forgotten about it in the calculations) 
• Vultus claimed that "The Great Calamity" had happened 30 years before the events, so events of "Heaven and Hell", on this timeline, happened on Year 12/13, after Alola events. 
  • It is said that events of Sacroc Region began shortly after Pokemon World Championship, during Oscar (one of the major NPCs) had participated. And PWC happened shortly after Galarian Star Tournament (in that universe). Unfortunately, neither Infernal nor myself can put SwSh on the timeline due to lack of legacy characters and no seemingly connections to other regions. So, this actually is on our benefit, not having to bother with another layer of complications 
  • That connects with my fanfic (which isn't canon to either Sacroc nor Reborn games), where Oscar is said to have arrived to Reborn around half a year after Sacroc protagonist has become new Champion, and since Reborn is said to happen around Year 13/14 (that calculating mistake surely mixes things up), that matches up... almost perfectly

Not enough?

Vultus had admitted to lost dear friend, who has apparently "sacrificed herself to "minimize the casualties" "... Whatever was that supposed to mean... And also she seemingly wouldn't accept him lamenting over her. 

While there's nowhere written more about her, I assume that could be Vivian, which did sacrifice herself to stop Storm-9. She would be around 67-69 if she was living in Rejuvenation. So there's a gap... LARGE age gap... But that wouldn't stop them from being friends - two kind, passionate, never-lying spirits associating with nature. 

That ain't much, BUT... there's more - perhaps the strongest potential connection.

Aevium is said to be (somewhat) bordering with Kalos, and be approximately close to Galar. Also, split into 4 parts. Since Kalos is France, and Galar is United Kingdom, then Aevium could be... Germany

Germany is bordering with France, quite close to UK, and the four pieces could symbolize events of May 1945, where III Reich was split into four spheres of influence: French, British, American, and Soviet. And it had taken 44 years to reunite completely. Still, in 1985 (40 years after), both Western and Eastern Germany were quite close to each other, just like Aevian sub-regions. 

And if we use real-life geography to locate Pokemon regions, then if Aevium is Germany (approximately; in terms of location), then... Aevium and Sacroc are neighboring - Sacroc is based on Poland, and it's western neighbor IS Germany. Meaning "The Great Calamity" Vultus was talking about, was Aevium's Storm-9. 

So that can wrap things up. 

I still cannot get over the fact I have created this, and... it somehow connects almost perfectly, despite not knowing anything about Rejuvenation or Aevium or... anything. 

That really freaked me out during discovering - just like when I realized I can see future while sleeping. Like... The exact events from future appear in my dreams, and I keep having that "deja-vu" from time to time. 

Human brain is really powerful 

I have watched playthoughs of Pokemon Colosseum and XD while planing on essays... and realized something I hadn't previously (because English is not my native/first language and I'm stupid) 

Spoilers Ahead: 

Like... Whoa! Why can't they do such actions more often?! 

To quote Rose from Juno Songs' cover 

"It... pains me to have to do this... 

But you leave me no choice"

After I fought with a Trainer who had FULL TEAM of OU Legendaries, I've legitimately ragequit after the battle (which I've barely won, with some luck and their really stupid decisions like outright using Psychic on Hydreigon), and decided: "Fine! You wanna see me using Legends! I WILL be using Legends!" 

Since I've reset my old W/L record (I had a winrate of only 45%, but only because I haven't reset it earlier, because when I first played competitive, I sucked so much that my winrate was pathetically low), every Trainer had at least 2 OU Legendaries (expect one - a Trick Room specialist - who I had fought twice; once I lost with his one Pokemon standing, and the other I won with my one Pokemon standing; he was having only Cresselia). 

I know that many (and myself) call this cheap and so on... but I was so livid that I've decided to do it myself. After all, two can play that game, huh? 

I know that having two Pseudo-Legendaries would already put me on the aim for hate, technically using 4 Legendary Pokemon... But there's a reason why everyone are salty about Legendaries and Ultra Beasts, and not Pseudos. Moreover, after returning to competitive, my team consisted of only two true OU Pokemon - Tyranitar and Skarmory. The other three (Hydreigon, Scizor and Chandelure) are UU, while Megas were UUBL at best. So I think it's fair for me 

Honestly, I feel I shouldn't ask, but I have to. 

Do you think that if I used Legendary Pokemon eligible for OU (or lower tiers) in competitive battles, would that be... "unfair"? 

This may sound weird, but if we consider many Legendary are being constantly complained about, especially likes of Lando-T or Tapus, I am afraid of using them because I don't wanna be called "meta slave" nor see they saying that I've only won because of that Legend, and can't play properly. Of course, those are said by players whos team are stacked with those and Uber-worthy Pokemon. 

Okay, straight to the point - I can't find a fitting Mega for my team. And I'm beginning to wonder if I should return to using Mega Tyranitar (either bulky full offense or fast Dragon Dancer), and then fill the last spot with Legendary of sorts. Or other Pokemon whos quite strong or can work well in Sandstorm, like Excadrill. 

To be fair, I'm not switching out any of the previously mentioned: Skarmory, Scizor, Tyranitar, Hydreigon and Chandelure, as all of them are doing a great work, and synergize very well with each other. I simply wanna hear your opinions.

All this time, I have played online Gen 7 metagame... that I forgot that none of my Pokemon was holding Z-Crystal. 

To be fair, that wasn't exactly necessary, as I have... around 75% winrate, I think. Maybe closer to 80%, I wasn't counting. But I do wonder if I should use Z-Crystal. And if yes, then on whom...? 

Currently my team is: 

• Occa Berry Scizor 
• Aguav Berry Skarmory 
• Smooth Rock/Chople Berry Tyranitar 
• Choice Scarf Chandelure 
• Life Orb Hydreigon 
• rotating Mega (formerly Aerodactyl, now Steelix, with possible Manectric joining) 

And if some Pokemon could have Crystal, then it's either Tyranitar or Hydreigon, in my opinion, as Skarmory won't do shit with Z-Move, Megas can't have Z-Crystals (except Rayquaza who's too broken; even for Ubers), Occa Berry saves Scizor from unexpected Hidden Power Fire (a few times it helped me win 6-0 with just Scizor), and Choice Scarf Chandelure is a beast. 

Still, Tyranitar and Hydreigon are good enough with their original sets. So I wonder if it's necessary to give them Z-Crystal. And what do you guys think? 

I've barely returned from an entire day in the university... And somehow I'd become an inspiration and assistance of this forums' a few veterans? 

...Am I really that charismatic? Or it's something else? I can't really put my finger on it. 

After... a very long time, I've decided to present to you my fanfiction about Pokemon Reborn: "Pokemon Reborn - The Highway of Fate"

Here's the link to the "presentation" of it on this forum: [CW: Fanfiction] "Pokemon Reborn - The Highway of Fate" - Creative Works - Reborn Evolved

[Comment Deleted by Oscarus] 

Question: Have you tried writing fanfic (or at least sets of some random short stories) from the "Protagonists can talk" bits? Cuz they seem quite a intriguing idea to base.

I'm a type of guy who always tries to cover up all "plot holes" that I've done - so no one can do the "Oscarus forgot" compilation. 

But there was one I couldn't fix... until recently. That was the relationship between Oscar (OC) and Cynthia which is, um, ...untypical. You'll see. 

Oscar (despite it never being shown as of right now) seems to have some kind of dislike toward Sinnoh Grand Champion for no apparent reason, despite her never doing anything to upset Battle Emperor...mostly.

In fact, Cynthia has nothing to say about him but compliments and respectful comments (which despite not being canon, it matches her character, at least from the anime). One could say that their battle during certain World Coronation Series where Oscar's Tyranitar (Mega) destroyed Cynthia's team 6-0, could offend him as he was expecting "challenge", but that's not the case - if he wanted challenge, he should give her a chance to shine, and not boost, tear and kill everything on its way. 

Up until today, I had no in-lore reason for my character to be in a cold relationship with perhaps the most beloved canon Champion. The off-universe reason is, as it was just mentioned, Cynthia being "the most beloved canon Champion". But it may not be as apparent as it seems. For you to understand, you have to know this: I HATE overrated things! And not "overrated" as in just loved or having some sort of special attention from the creators, because for example Lucario and Charizard are overrated in that way, but I still like them (maybe the personal attachment plays the role). I mean "overrated" as in: fandom bitchin' on how they are "awesome" and ascending to the position so high that others don't matter anymore and are thrown into obscurity, despite them being weak, pathetic, insignificant, or simply being a subject of blatant lie. 

Like "Oh, Bidoof is the true god of Pokemon, Arceus who?" or "Greninja is da best, and every1 who don't agree is stoopid" or... too many to count. That is not only about Pokemon fandom, but every damn fandom on this planet - without any exceptions. Although I admit there are some of these that I like and accept... but those have much lore and twists inside them that them actually make me smile, like "The Mythology of Lord Helix" - Twitch Plays Pokemon, from some dumb multi-multi-multi pseudo co-op game, has created an actual history, with characters, plot, legends, timelines, and it was so addicting that I'm loving that kind of creativity. 

But Cynthia? Just because she was a bit more difficult than the other Champions from mainline games, she's suddenly above all else, simply the best and the others are forgettable? Th'fuck?! She wasn't even a challenge for me! 

...I mean, she DID defeat me on my first attempt in Platinium, but then my strongest Pokemon was Empoleon on level 53, and the other a bit lower. I did get to Cynthia with a team of level 50-53, without using Revives in battles (only a few Full Restores on Lucian, but he was doing the same thing), no X Items - which I was declaring them to be useless for true Pokemon Trainer - and no real EV/IV training or cherry-picking Pokemon.  I was way better than I expected, wow. 

Of course, after a bit of grinding, I have defeated her with level 57 Houndoom (which knew Sunny Day and Solar Beam, which make it singlehandedly defeat Milotic even after being quite damaged from Spiritomb) and lv 58 Garchomp which haven't missed a single Dragon Rush in the battle, while Cynthia's Garchomp couldn't connect one before fainting. I don't know why they claim it to be that difficult - I've even played Diamond version to check if that Cynthia was tougher but nope; underleveled Torterra and Garchomp were more than enough. 

She also forces us, a not-teenage-yet child, to go into the place which might kill you if you do one step in the wrong direction, just to hunt some depressed young adult who would be simply teared apart of separated from everything else by Giratina. 

A very responsible behavior, Cynthia. And fandom laughed at Leon for being "not-Champion", despite the fact that most of the plot he had spent doing His. Damn. Job! 

Also, some "s-words" have declared her "Greatest Dragon Master" despite the fact... that at the time of that declaration... she had a grand total of 1 DRAGON! JUST ONE!!! Which pains me, as a Dragon Tamer from Day 1, that she is apparently more Dragon than Lance - the walking definition of Dragon Master; who uses both Dragon-type and Dragon-like Pokemon - Clair, Iris, Drayden, or even Nobunaga, who had in possession two Legendary Dragon-types and was the ruler of the Dragnor - a place where multiload of dragons were living. The only reason she's so popular is because others-... ...I know I have pushed the boundaries too much, and may get a warning, so I won't make my situation worse, and just say that she's way too popular for reasons other than character or history. Those reasons are more... visible, and psyhical 

I... shouldn't be so strict and rough, but I simply want you to understand, since I do have problems with "sending messages" to others. 

To the point - the off-universe reason for Oscar disliking Cynthia is my hate toward fandom for gloryfing her beyond human understanding. But... that cannot be put into lore, that would make no sense, and create a plot hole I wish to erase. And then, during Math sessions on the academy, while I was waiting for the rest to do their exercises I'd done far before them, it clicked. I was reminded of one fact - Oscar, just like Cynthia, is an expect in mythology and history of the world. It has been also said, many times, Oscar wishes to eradicate evil and bring peace, even using the most extreme methods. Do you know who was evil, wishing to create a new, "perfect" universe, destroying the old one, and is mentioned in the legends and myths? 

That could make him start to believe Cynthia might try to do the same, and began to distance himself from her, still keeping a keen eye and preparing in case of a sudden shift. 

Is it paranoid? Definitely yes, no excuses. But at least there are no visible plot holes~

Was this mumble necessary...?   I cannot tell. I'll delete this if asked by admins, but not in a next several hours, as I will be... busy. 

Curse my talentless arse! 

I have so many wonderful ideas to create and share with you (with the most realistic being pictures/art), but I can't... as I possess no drawing talent. None at all. 

I've been trying to draw and paint for years, but it was all worthless - waste of pencil, crayons, paper and time. And in my head it looks so wonderful - at least for me. 

You have no idea how I envy you, and your arts of any sorts - they're so beautiful; you're so talented... I wish I could do it too, but I simply suck at it, no matter how much training I was doing. 

Honestly, I wish I could generate pictures by just imagining them, and share here, so I could at least "be" an "artist". 

Actually... If I could do that, then forget about pictures - I could create an entire anime! With more accurate descriptions of places, characters and places full of life, emotional moments and openings/endings! 

But... you should do voice acting and OST by themselves; I cannot create voice head canons in my head; it all sounds awkward. 

...why am I writing this anyways...? Hell if I know. I just feel useless by being surrounded by lots of talented ladies and gentlemen like yourselves. 

Is using the "N-word" in writing racist when you don't have the pass? 

Maybe I'll need to expand: by that I mean having some character use "n-word" to other. Theorically you're not the one to use or speak it, but you're writing it. But you're not writing it to real-life person in a real life, but have some fictional character say it to other fictional character. Is that still considered racist? 

Well, if the character saying it isn't black-skinned, then that one is racist, but does that make me - the writer - racist? 

Why am I asking it...? 

Maybe because I don't want to cause controversy while writing. Obviously, I haven't intended to overuse it, but I still wish to know.