Ok ill sort of spam your post cause i like to comment while reading so sowwy forgive yahy in advance
Some months ago this Ame's video happened to appear in my Youtube feed, you should check it out i guess.
Paraphrasing it, you need to do things in order to get that feeling back, just go and start something even without high expectations on it, it will help. Also try to do your responsabilities (the ones that you don't sort of feel motivated to) for just 10 minutos or so (yeah lie to yourself on this one, cause your goal is to end up doing the thing). Exemple: today yahy had to do a college Calculus list. Yahy is lazy. Yahy wanted to watch tv and hug doggydog. Yahy lied to zeself to do one or two questions of the list, and ended up doing it entirely.
You shouldn't do that! You need to trust people to make stronger bonds! Telling the truth always help on this! Trust them, even if you know they're lying, and forgive mistakes (many, not all), people are not perfect! They will lie, they will betray ya, but if they do it, and you show that as a friend you've forgive them, they will like ya GSy person even more! (They will keep doing that, everyone fucks up sometimes).
Ignoring things is wrong to start with. Trust your intuition. But there are some things you just don't need to say ya know. Last week a friend stole Yahy's pen, and Yahy knew it. I just let that go and asked the class as if i didn't know. Of course Yahy's friend did not give it back that day. But they gave it back this week, and made all that sowwy plz 4gimme yahy and i wuz like yyy thx for giving it back nerd. Of course this wuz extreme and you should level it around the person you're deling with, in this case, it wuz one of my closest friends, so i knew ze would give it back.
I did not lose anything for not saying that i knew it. But i avoided starting a bad situation for my friend, and ze unconsciounly (i dont know how to spell this) strenghtened they bond to me.
This might be an attention deficit problem, Yahy does the same thing!
Being sort of sad at a moment + having attention deficit caused most of my problems around this thingys. Now Yahy takes a medicine and go to some tall weird doctor that welps me with some exercises.
Yahy is not good with love matters... sowwy i can't help ya with that
But it sure is weird to some random person to hit ya up. Yahy feels weird too when this happens (like 3 times in Yahy's entire life)
Yahy feels like this too sometimes. Ya should try having someone to provoke you (i guess thats the word)
Like Yahy's mamma/friends that just go and say like hey weird person you are getting out of this state now "noooo fuck off" "you ARE leaving this house rn and watch a movie with ya mamma fucking nerdy nerd come the fuck on"
it usually works. And when it doesn't, Yahy start feeling bad and go back in the decision of not going.
This is a problem that depressed people usually have, Yahy too, cant wake up early even though i need to. Usually, Yahy has nightmares, but better not have any dreams than that imo. Yahy takes a sleep medicine that makes ze go vida loka for 1 hour and them sleep like a rock to wake up feeling like i had the best rest in my life. Doc said i should take it, so you might wanna visit one for this sleep thing, it is surely a big problem.
I see, sowwy for saying about having someone to inspire you earlier.
If you dont. I know it will be hard, but you need to do this yourself. Be that Mamma that kicks Yahy but and says go out there make friends you fucking nerd. But do this to yourself. I do it sometimes, it usually works, but when it doesn't, nothing that a big'old roll out of the bed doesn't solve. Try it, it might not work 100%, but it should at least help.
Thats all i guess
See ya round Bally GS person