Hey, I don't know you, but I do value life highly. Life does suck (especially high school) many people can relate their, it's a huge pressure that shouldn't be pushed onto the developing minds that build the future. It's hard to see the point when people only normally say meaningless things like "just keep going", or "it'll be alright". What I want to tell you is that life gets very wild and unpredictable after high school. I can almost guarantee you will blossom into a new person after you graduate. It's an amazing and life changing experience that really takes a weight off of your shoulders. I'm not asking you to not end your life, mostly because I've never gotten to that point before and I can't really judge, but what I do ask is that you give it time to let this amazing moment happen, because the change out of high school, whether it be college or not, is great and i wouldn't want a single person to miss it. I hate to see someone get so down and depressed that they feel ending their life would be better, but along with getting out of high school you'll start to realize that your own opinion about yourself trumps everyone else's opinion about you. Dick heads and assholes (this can include parents because they are ordinary people too) are just dick heads and assholes who try to make other people dick heads or assholes. Make yourself who you want to be, the person you want to influence to be more like you. Don't live in the shadows of others, maybe take a week to do solely the things you want to do. Also, this is a bit out there, but if you don't know Daniel Avidan, then read up on his life story if you can, he spent most of his life building himself based off of what he wanted to become, his family disapproved of it and he had to ask for a ton of help. Now he is moderately famous and he's just a really cool dude who is proud of the person he is. I think I've gotten a bit off track, but if anything just find who you want to be, don't lose sight of it, and become that person regardless of what other people think of you. One more thing, you are really brave to have asked for help, especially with a topic like this, so at the very least know that you have a very brave soul.