Thanks for the concern, but it's not too much of an issue in my opinion.
I'm pretty good at doing crazy shit and getting away with it. Years of experience, even~ Though this is admittedly new territory.
Not much of anybody cares IRL. I mean, my parents would probably, but they don't know, which is one of the things I like about our relationship.
We don't talk, and when we do, I don't tell them anything about myself. It makes things easier on everybody.
I suppose if they did though, they'd send me back to the mental hospital and residential afterwards. Which I wouldn't particularly mind...
There's no price that isn't worth paying! Nothing means much of anything. You and I are about as meaningful as the computer we're typing on, and the value of living over dying is zilch. Though I imagine life is our brief reprieve from whatever there was prior, which again, I imagine to be not anything at all. So it doesn't really matter if I live or die, or what I do in what state to another.
What you or others want to believe I'll respect, but understandably not conform myself to. While I've got my chance to live and do whatever I want, I fully intend to take advantage of that. Before I die by whoever's hand decides I'm done here, be it mine or someone elses.
~~~~~~~~~~~~~Journal Time~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
Ooookay. Now!
Skimming my last post...
Kay I just read all that and omfg I'm going to finish this journal earlier than most so I can fix some intense typos/grammatical errors.
Mmmm drugs aren't THAT crazy. Just wait till you hear the kind of shit I used to do at the mental hospital and prior to it xx
Just finished listening to
and my playlist just shuffled itself over to
I will love you till the end of time
Kay, on to actual post content.
Firstly, the Sweet 16.
It was kind of really boring!
The girl turning 16 had a baby though, and he was super cute. His name was Christopher.
Maddie didn't turn out any liquor.
There were like 30 people.
The girl's parents were super sketched out, so we couldn't do much other than sit there and talk while the music played really loud.
It was good music, but hardly anyone danced, and it made conversation difficult.
While we were there, I asked some guy he was a model because I'd never seen someone that flawless in real life before.
But uh. He wasn't a model and it was awkward. And then he started making out with the birthday girl, which was more awkward because she has a boyfriend who isn't him.
But I guess she rolls that way, the baby being proof.
The most I got was menthols, all fucking night :I
Though the guy sharing them asked my if Maddie was my "girl", which I thought was LOLFUNNY because my Gay Vibe isn't hard to catch sight of, nor is the fact that she'd been flirting with him all night.
Doodadoo, what else happened...
Not much during the party, that's what.
Saturday I missed something.... I don't mind having missed.
Maddie invited me to hang with her boyfriend, and Jess/Kyle, who are also dating.
I couldn't get a ride and didn't want to be the odd one out (single one alone QQ) so I opted out.
Then she tells me there was a lot of boyfriend on girlfriend action come monday, and I think "What the fuck doesn't casual sex between more than one couple at a time only happen in fucking pretentious porn" and decide I'm happy I didn't go. Woulda been hella awk.
Sunday nothing happened.
Yesterday, Monday, I brought the money for the X, and I guess Summer's trading it for the stuff from her dealer and getting it back to me now.
I trust her not to rip me off, so it's all good.
So since I'm not allowed to bring energy drinks to school anymore, my mom made me tea for caffeine this morning.
Because coffee is bitter and gross.
It worked for awhile but this shit makes you crash too, as evidenced by me, right now.
Ughhhhhhhh.
Kassadin free week. Trollin' bitches on Twisted Treeline
Sometimes Homestuck can be so longwinded it hurts to read.
But most of the time it's just awesome.
I don't really have much to say so bye <3