Alright, now that I'm more of in...that kind of mood I'll make something more...detailed. Let's go from January. Started pretty awesome of course, my birth month and all. Turned 20, nothing to special, helped out with my High School's production of Grease. Went back to college after vacation. Had a few crushes that didn't develop into anything other than close friendships. You know, friendzoned and all. That made me start to find out how lonely I am at times. That's when everything kinda went downhill. I stopped going to classes. It was dumb of me, but I couldn't get together the determination to achieve much of anything. A couple months of this passed then came spring vacation.
Life picked up a little again for spring vacation. I came back home and helped with the actual show nights of Grease. I was lucky it fell on my break because it really brightened up my life for that week. The people I loved and cared about back from home all in one place. The kids, the adults, the stage, everything. It made me happy. The show went well, it was good. Then before I leave my mother tells me she's getting a divorce from my step father. Now, I was more than okay with this at the time because I hate the bastard, but that's a story for another time. So yeah, I was happy with that because he didn't make her happy, and she deserves to be happy. However, at the time I didn't think of the re-precautions of what this meant.
Back at college I wanted to go to classes, but it felt weird. I walked to the room and then I just walked on. I couldn't go in after missing almost half the semester. So on went my failure as a student. Didn't go to class, which made me feel shitty because I wanted to but it felt too late. Then comes a letter. All my tuition wasn't paid for because of some mistakes my professors made. Now, a normal human would have gone and talked to them about the corrections, but this was the final straw for me, I couldn't. I didn't care anymore. So on I went for the last few weeks without much of anything to do except play games.
So finally college was over, looked like I wasn't going back there now. None of my credits that I DID earn could be acquired now because Potsdam didn't get my payment from federal aid and such. And now I find out I was asked to be in Godspell, my towns summer musical. But remember, my mom and step-dad are divorced, and as much as I would love to be in the musical I couldn't stay with my step-dad yet. Now you may ask why I didn't stay with my mom. Well she was down in Albany already. So after all this hectic-ness I received a blessing. The Director of the production invited me to stay with her family until the end of the show.
Now, this was also a little awkward of a stay, I'm an agnostic and her family is very Christian, but at the same time they are also respectful of others beliefs, thankfully. She allowed me to stay, I didn't have to go to church with them or anything. It was pretty great honestly. They're a upper-middle class family and it was nice living with them. I wish I could still, but I wouldn't want to be a burden on them, however I'm getting off topic. We did the show, all went well. I figured out I'm going down to Albany with my mother after and such, things were alright.
So now I'm down in Albany, and boy was it weird for me. We had a decent apartment with my mom's new boyfriend. 2 bedroom, 1 bath, in hallway kitchen, nothing too fancy but it was nice. But within the first week of being there I didn't want to be anymore. I couldn't stand the city. It quite literally made me feel unsafe and I had difficulty with the air. I could breathe just fine but it felt wrong. Anyways, I talked to my mom about it and I promised her I would try to adjust. Nothing changed. In fact, things got worse. I started feeling depressed and missing everyone up in Peru (New York). I finally cracked and said I would stay with my step-father for the time being.
So I moved back here, I'd spent about 2 months in Albany and couldn't handle it. I've been here now for about 2-3 months I think and I'm still feeling rather down. I was hoping I'd have a job by now but nothing is available. My application is still in all the places though, so here's hoping for that. So I decided I'd try to get back to college for the spring semester. Well it's hard to do it on your own. I couldn't figure things out. So I called the local Upward Bound office because I'd been in the program and they said you could always go there for help. Unfortunately I was too late to sign up for spring semester. Though I've already promised myself I'll get in next fall.
Then just a few weeks back I great heartbreaking news. One of my close adult friends from the musical group passed away. I couldn't believe it. It felt just like yesterday that he had been the Mushnik to our Seymour. The Genie to our Aladdin. Now he was gone. It was horrible. I couldn't make the wake or the funeral which made me feel even worse about the situation.
Now we're in December and almost at New Years. Here's honestly a hope for a better year. I've had so many ups and downs this year that I need a break. Sorry if this is a tl;dr post. Sorry if it's all qq fuck my life but at the same time it feels nice to let my year come out there and be seen. I'm not looking for sentiments. I'm not looking for compliment. I'm not looking for anything.
However, now to the second, less depressing part of the thread:
Movie: Movie of this year or just that I watched this year? Well, I'll go with the latter. Inkheart. I watch it quite often because I love it.
Album: LIGHTS acoustic album. I don't care much for her other music, but this blew my mind.
Anime: FullMetal Alchemist Brotherhood. I've never seen any other movie, book, television show, video game, song, anything better written than this. I loved the original FullMetal Alchemist and I don't think I'll ever stop loving Brotherhood.
TV Show: For anyone who knows me they'd think I would say Doctor Who. Well sure, it is an amazing show, but I feel this spot is a tie between 2 new shows I've just started watching. Grimm and Once Upon a Time.
Game: It came out late 2010, so I didn't really play it until 2011 so Golden Sun: Dark Dawn. I don't care what anyone else thinks about it, I was blown away by this game. I'd been waiting ever since I beat The Lost Age for a new game. It's ending TOLD me there would be another. There just had to be, and after almost 6-7 years of waiting I got one. Not only that but it will have a sequel as well considering its ending.