SharlaSmith44

I was a little of a dickhead, I know. 

• Not saying or responding to wishes during Christmas' and New Year's seasons
• Being overall silent in the forum
• Being serious and hardly laughing at all
• Forgetting myself and accidentally spoiling plot of the gang just because "it's been public for a while"
• Not giving a fuck about other people's deaths or tragedies (perhaps the most insensitive was my reaction on Joseph Ratzinger's passing, which was like: "Well, I saw that coming...")

In fact, I feel like I'm slowly becoming insensitive, bored and way too straightforward, but in a bad way. Just like Larry. 

But there's a difference here - Larry is a fictional character, within a fictional universe, fullon unique personaliies. And I am pretty much real. And... I don't wanna lose the will to live!

Maybe it's just me getting desperate over lack of any human contact ("quite unique" for an introvert since early elementary school), or my life is getting repetitive, or it's real depression... or combination for all.

I know I don't need to say it... well, I guess I just did... maybe because not even my family doesn't want to hear my problems, even daring to say that "depression and all 'mental illnesses' are a figment of lazy humans"

...

Do I need to say more? 

Maybe it's on me for not having close friends in real life... because I wish NOT to be in the vicinity of vandals, drug dealers and third-rated racketeers. 

And- and why am I saying this? Who will care? Are you trying to make a victim out of yourself, Oscar?

...y'know, forget it. 

Maybe I shouldn't type it... but, somehow, I have the urge to speak about my problems with others whenever I'm feeling under the weather. 

I caught my 1st Shiny in Pokemon Scarlet! The problem though? It's a Salandit... & it's male. Dx