GreyShadow

Welp… I’m alive, so…

that’s a thing.

look I’m gonna be honest I’m not doing great, I have no friends, and nobody to talk to about anything. So I’m gonna use my lonely little corner to vent this morning. Ok

ok. 
 

yea I feel like shit, physically I feel tired but as per usual my sleep schedule is fucked up beyond belief, I’m bored out of my mind again because 1 I’m broke af, and 2 there are so few decent games coming out these days it’s honestly depressing (I have really high standards for video games, I don’t want a masterpiece kind you but I do want a good story and good gameplay with as little padding as possible please no more unnecessary puzzles) official Pokémon is trash imo there hasn’t been a game halfway decent since hgss, we finally got some kh news… missing links development is canceled… “but but grey” I hear you saying “we got screenshots of kh4” 3 screenshots most of which is more SORA, I am so tired of sora omg, riku is my favorite character and he got shafted so damn hard in kh3 it hurts. Back to my main point I guess, I miss when jrpgs where like ff4, ff7, kh2, pokemon gen 4/ colosseum/xd, I miss the experimentation of games from the 2000s, I’m sick of how formulaic and by the numbers every game is, despite the flaws I loved dragon age the veilguard (and there are ALOT of flaws) my enby ass loved seeing taash grow into themselves, had fun with romancing neve, enjoyed playing a rogue and all the speedy combat I liked the story I enjoyed the conclusion, and despite all it did good it was review bombed to death because there were lgbtqia+ characters and minorities… DRAGON AGE HAS ALWAYS HAD THAT… ughhhh the world pisses me off, now half of BioWare is gone and the chances of ever getting another dragon age are at an all time low. A franchise I recently got into with inquisition (had a great time there but didn’t like having to play a man or a woman, veilguard really kicked ass with the inclusivity truly amazing!!!) I hate how few games don’t let me be… well me, ya know. I just want to be able to escape this shit hole of a world into one where hope still exists and the premise that you CAN change shit is not so far lost to the average people… I’m sick of this capitalist hellscape we call a country, I genuinely hate so much of the world right now is absolutely exhausting. I’m sad. I’m alone. And I really don’t have a whole lot going for me irl, I’m socially awkward, mentally ill, not particularly attractive, asexual (for some weird reason that’s a problem for some people idk, why does my sexuality matter, why does that make me lesser in so many peoples eyes) I’m an amab enby which leads to more isolation as even online I don’t feel particularly welcome in LGBTQIA+ spaces because for some reason people just assume that means I’m a man perving OR a trans girl in denial. I am neither of those things thanks VERY MUCH. So yea, lonely as hell, with nothing to do and being alone with my thoughts these last few months really hasn’t been good for my mental health. 
 

and before anyone asks yes I’m aware everyone can see this. 
 

there’s really no reason to hide it, not that anyone will read this haha… 

that’s why I said this is my lonely little corner, nobody comes here but me. Why not use it to catalog anything at any moment I have the strength to say something. Cuz I know someday I won’t even have that anymore.