Okay... so... uh...   Well, let's start from the beginning. I'm not always the 24/7 cheerful, upbeat, chirpy person(na) that I show on the forums. Yes, I get excited, I like joking around and stuff, but honestly, I don't really like myself. And I am quite fed up with myself. I will warn you that my mind is now as messed up as it gets, so I don't even know if everything I will say will make any sense.   Throughout my life I went into elementary, middle, highschool, univer