I'm very anxious and withdrawn and pessimistic in practice, though I'm striving to be just the opposite of that.
I'm very long-winded because anytime I speak, I feel compelled to obsess over wording things right and making sure I'm totally understood. This makes me very slow to respond in general.
I have bad memory when it comes to specific things, like things I want to do or need to do. But it's weird. Sometimes I'm conscious aware of the things I want/need to be doing, but I just... can't compel myself to do them. I'll watch myself walk past the thing, or just refuse to stand up to go to it, while screaming at myself in my head to just get up and do it. Like some kind of subconscious failsafe or something. It's been suggested that this, too, is a form of anxiety.
I always wind up speaking in reference to myself, or with excessive use of I. I'm very self-conscious about this, and try hard to avoid it when I can.
Anytime anything I do is not met with immediate success, I'm constantly worrying that I have screwed up, and obsess and worry about it constantly until something happens. This leads to more wordiness and overqualification of statements and actions.
In a similar vein, I'm constantly playing out potential conversations in my head. Again and again, constant what-ifs going through my head.
I'm quick to speak out negatively about things. I despise this above all else, and judge myself very harshly about it.
Other than that, micky and Unpro are like... literally me? I'm crying a little?
