11 days too late - Appreciation by Ody

[Odybld]

Ody Productions present

~♤♡♢♧~

I didn't think I'd make one. And today I decided not only to make it, but also how to make it. I picked a date. It was the anniversary of the date I pm'd pretty much my first Reborn friend... and I'm 11 days too late, god fucking damnit! I gotta hurry and do it fast before it reaches 12 and I have a lot of people to write to and about.

However it's not gonna be that easy. I decided to turn this little happening into a guessing game, which I so much love. I will not name the recepients of my comments and appreciation. You know who you are, or you should understand by reading this. Or at least have a solid guess.

To help randomize the process and not just go from most important to less important and shit, I've got a deck of cards next to me: I'll draw a card and write about a person, whoever I think the card suits. Black suits, prolly male. Red suits, prolly female. Higher number or figure, prolly more close or important. Lower number, still here for a reason. Ace? In german it's called Ass. Yup, true story.

The rules!

• Read the thread and find out who you are, if you're here.
• Your value is not represented by the cards, only very relatively. If you're here you're cool. The deck was shuffled!
• If you thing you know who you are, write it here. Or pm me in the forum, or tell me in Showdown or elsewhere.
• I will add your name if you get it right unless you tell me not to.
• I will try to bring the thread to your attention a little if I see you're not sent anything.
• Do not write publicly about who people other than you are in these entries, even if you guess it!
• Ame and a couple more people are not included here for simply not fitting under just "member of Reborn" for me.

Without further ado, here come my hand of good people of Reborn! ♤♡♢♧

10♢ is Ama: In a most weird turn of events, first card for the first person I met here, a most appropriate card for you. It all started with you, believe it or not. You propably don't. You never bothered on how embarrasing for me my first message to you was, and then I never let you go with an iron insistence, until things stuck well enough. You should know that I value you like only a few members here. Gonna hug you irl!

2♢ is Zumidesu: We've been preeeeetty much distant in the last many months. I'm back to appreciating you quietly, since you've stopped doing a various things that were peeving me. I am easily peeved though and you shouldn't mind that. Anyway, I'm back to appreciating you and quietly hyped. I was kinda sad btw. People noticed more some things you did over the ones I valued more.

1♤ is NickCrash: We're talking sporadically because I'm an awfully inconsistent at it, but you are the man. Super friendly, super smart, humourous and with a voice on the phone that is always sounding off from what I expect, and always into something. Keep it up both here and irl, cause you can. You're the man!

1♧ is Etesian: Fuck yet another ace. On and off and on and off, as things often go with me. But still an awesome guy, always helpful, and I'm always here for you pal. We started talking when you were grand and I was little and it was cool, always. I'm here for you man! Oh and btw, the deck is mightier than the dice, I'll give you that!

8♤ is Pineapple: I've been hard on your ass from time to time to time, and I kinda regret it you know. Which is very rarely the case. You are an incredibly fun guy to be around, whether I' m actively involved or lurking around, you are one of the most open rebornians and I like you immensly. Although your potential of trolling is off the charts.

2♧ is Nova the moest Shade: I lament, LAMENT the axing of prank items. Your creations are absolutely perfect for them, as I've demonstrated once in times ancient. Well, once and a half, I failed the first time. We barely barely talk, but you're a chill guy, always engaged into something and giving it all you got. I can respect that.

2♤ is Stratos: Dear rival, I was never as motivated and meticulious to make you have a rival that was a Redemption League Champion. Well only two managed anyway. However, our brief rivalry was a really nice thing to have. I hope the best for you, and I wanna see you find the way to your dreams.

6♢ is an IceCreamSandWitch: A most bizarre, quirky, interesting and unpredictable member of the community. Or, well, I know it's gonna be weird, awesome and a great ride, but I never can guess what it's gonna be. Please continue doing your thing and never be afraid or scared of anything. Actually, you don't even need encouragement, since your creativity is unbound.

8♧ is Kamina: You're as chill and easygoing a guy as they come. Perfect for helping me with mons, perfect for getting what you deserve. Endless banter and trash talk. And Christ almighty do you deserve it. Oh and don't reply with an :[ cause I wanna see you try answering in english. That's always entertaining!

4♤ is Tomas Elliot: You're a really nice guy and at the same time as stern a hardass as they come. Ok, I'm a little hyperbolic with that, but you are a tough nut to crack. At the same time you are the guy with the amazing smarts, strong opinions, great points and you are the guy that knows how to do things. In a very wide spectrum. I really really respect you and I wish things will be on the rise once again!

7♧ is Derpy Simon: Well whatever friction once was I'm past it. Let's say some things are strictly business. You've been an incredible help to me in one big project I've done around this place and always a great guy to talk to. And some things are always worth a good banter, especially if we feel we're getting trolled. That has to do with both forum mechanics and server happenings.

7♤ is Shing: You are quite a good guy. Also a very, very distant one, which does not work well enough with my inconsistency and all. However, you are a much better guy than what you think you are and you should be a little more, well... willing to come out of your shell and relax and make your stands and whatnot. Keep your head up mate.

~~Intermission! This is a shittily shuffled deck if I may say so. Too many black suits while there are a lot of Reborn girls I want to thank, so, reshuffling time! Removed cards won't be added back to the deck of course!~~

J is Kurotsune: Stands for the Joker. I've given up on tryintg to talk to you in private, trying to understand you or trying anything about you. You are your own demon. I hope all goes well for you because you are a great person even when you're busy being a great mystery or a great pain in someone's butt. Just be you in the most happy you can be, that's my wish.

8♡ is Lost Lore: Ahh, I was waiting for you for some time! I love, love, love the quick wit and mind of yours and lament every time you are shy, afraid or uncomfortable. To me you are absolutely cute, absolutely fabulous, and most importantly, absolutely necessary, adding your spice when least expected.

10♧ is Renzo: You're not a 10 in many many regards, but as late as this card came I have to do my best, and you are the best. Cause you're a 10 at being a fun and cool guy to hang around for multitude of reasons. You're great entertainment, great at talking about entertainment too. Although we don't talk much, you talk a lot and that's pretty pretty fun! Especially your latest campaign of spreading the word has been pretty sick!

6♧ is Author Reborn: Again, we don't really talk. But a random encounter and the lots of encouragement it gave me, a great attitude and you being around for various things and suddenly you're here! Let's hope that all goes well from now on too! Good luck with all the irl things too man, because I may be a silent watcher, but I do read and wish you the best!

9♡ is Rosesong: We are quite different as personalities. I'm much more... well, brash, rude, sceptical, insistent, etc etc etc. Kinda meshes badly with your openness, positivity and your great demeanour. Well, all that is precisely the reason we are able to talk. If it was more about my bad attitude, you would have been exasperated months ago. Thanks for being great with me and pretty much everyone as well!

Q♢ is a Destructive Skitty: You're absolutely awesome. Very open, incredibly helpful, really good at what you do, an awesome person to talk to. That doesn't make you any less of a wild card, an enigma, a person that's often incredibly hard to decode. Part of your charm, I guess, but it's always troubling me a little. I wish you would start posting in the community about the community again, as you once did.

7♡ is Alicirno: We only talk a little, but it's always great to be able to talk to someone without any feelings of guilt, any negative backlash or any restraint about things we may both be interested in. It's quietly great to make someone feel welcome in that regard!

7♢ is Red Chaos: You're quite a weird one. Not in a bad way, but you're a little odd. Your attitude has often been a source of confusion for me, your reactions, the brevity of your text, the weird patterns. You're not a bad one at all though! I guess one thing I could say to describe you, take it however you like it, is "very american".

Q♤ is Xiri: An abiguious combination too! Quite neat! Well, you've said that you like me a lot, but I would be very dissappointed if you aren't secretly a vicious competitor and look down at me just as I like and appreciate you a lot, but as a vicious competitior I loathe and detest you! Well, I guess you don't have as much a nasty attitude as I... or do you?

~~Reshuffling intermission no2~~

6♤ is Hukuna Fulmine: It's hard when you're both super hard on yourself and believe that everyone's super hard on you. And I don't want to tell you that you're wrong about it, I don't want to dismiss that feeling of yours, but I hope you were more receptive to the sympathy and appreciation and respect lots and lots of people, including yours truly, have towards you.

K♢ is too awkward a card. I'm putting it inthe bottom of the deck and exchanging it with the previous bottom one which is...

4♢ is Kosher Kitten: You've been more or less very quiet for months. We don't talk at all, pretty much. But I appreciate your demeanor and miss the most weird and bizarre side of you, that you once upon a time revealed sporadically. Your dream self. These thoughts were of the most interesting things I've had the luck of reading anywhere around here, therefore, here you are!

3♤ is Zimvader42: 3 for 30. That's the day you sent me the last pm. I won't disclose the month. Quite frankly I was extremely lazy to reply then and then kept it in mind for months. Sorry man. I wish I had that motivation to try, but it's kinda hard. Or at least it was hard at the time. Still, you're quite the interesting guy and I am a great fan of your creations. Best of luck too on what lies ahead with them!

...a few minutes later "I know how I can use this card I discarted earlier!"

K♢ is Hilda->Hunter: Yet another ambiguious one. Ups and downs is what it's been with you, and I trust that things are a little more stable the last few months. On one side any sign of you being ambitious around here makes me wary. On the other side I can appreciate a conversation sparker like you quite a lot. Although I often disagree in the ways you think about things, it's always nice to have someone vested in other matters.

5♤ is Jericho: In comparison to the auth listed here you are by far the most vested in your position, which makes you a tougher sell on me. Regardless, you're a swell guy, even when you're a pain up the butt, too much fan police and whatnot. I like you as a guy, I like lots of things you've done as an auth, I'm wary of the auth in general. I hope we both can appreciate the better parts of the deal!

~~There is only one Joker for Reborn and I hit the second in the deck, so once more, reshuffling!~~

9♧ is Viridescent: I like this suit to almost finish this, although the number's high up the sky. You're a really nice, active, industrious, very smart guy. Although strict and uptight too and quite the character. I hope we can slowly continue to build our relationship, since it's a little fresher than with other people here!

~OCFR: Order Card for Replacements. A non-playing card, but one where you circle the cards gone bad and mail it to the company to send you new ones without buying a new deck. Not an entry!~

K♧ is Kaito: Down with the King!!! As your loyal subject I have pledged my faith and my trust into you and I don't regret it at all, so don't betray them and it'll all be good, even great! You're as swell a guy as I was told, so let's enjoy the ride! Although some maintenance is quite in order.

~Come on, one or two last, I gotta shuffle to get a fitting one~

6♡ is a Cool Girl: We started to talk recently and I already had enough time to be a hardass! All you need to know about me, perhaps. At any rate, you're a very good kid, altough your stormy enthousiasm to everything is not my style at all. That doesn't mean I don't appreciate you! But I'm still insistent in my stances towards things and in some cases I think the best is "everyone does as they see fit"

4♧ is Assistant Njab: One man can't do it all, so assistance is required, and even the most egotistic pridefull idiot (yours truly) will agree. Thanks for being a great guy to work with, always ready, willing and very chill about it, especially right after I had been quite the weirdly insistent guy about it all. Thanks for your help and most of all for the helpful attitude, and 'til the next time we gotta work on it all!

Happy hunting!~

Oh, and have a picture of all the cards used in the making of this topic, this flock of seagulls!

[Red_Chaos]

i stick out like a swore thumb but thank you :3

[ZEL]

Let's see... as much as parts of 10♢ would probably fit me, I can easily see the biggest hint also being fitting for another person who I know is very dear to you. (The hug IRL part. Sure, that could be me since I'm hoping to have that vacation this or next year, but I'm not the only one in huggable reach.)

The first message you sent to me was sent on May 12th.

So while this would mean that 11 days ago /was/ the anniversary of you messaging me for the first time, I also find it hard to believe that I would be the "first person I met here" for you. You seemed fairly active to me already by the time I joined, and what with you having been around for three months prior to our convo...

But on the other hand, you know what's gonna be next: I am reluctant to guess myself because I'm bad at thinking highly enough of myself :')

Honestly, right now none of the descriptions other than 10♢ seem to fit me enough, but as you know, I also have a very warped perception of my personality, so you might have described me somewhere and I didn't recognize it because I am terrible at accepting any form of validation and compliments.

And, well... "I never let you go with an iron insistence" if that doesn't sound very familiar, I don't know what. You sure were determined to keep me talking, no matter how much I thought I'm not worth the time.

You know me, I'm terrible at starting conversations, but that doesn't mean I don't enjoy it when I'm being approached :3

Edited May 24, 2016 by Ama

[Raindrop Valkyrie]

I have... no bloody clue if I'm even on here to be honest lol. I'm very bad at judging my own character or how people think of me ((mostly cause I assume that literally everyone hates me... even people I know who don't. it's... unbecoming I know but I'm just not very confident in myself really... or that I really even have redeemable qualities that would make people want to think anything of me really I suppose. I guess to me, I just feel like I'm not really worth being friends with or even caring about. Well, I used to a lot more than I do now. I'm still pretty bad about it sometimes but I'm learning to not be so... much this way anymore I suppose.))

Anyway, since I've got no idea, I'll jsut say even fi I'm not, you're a cool dude Ody. Keep on keeping on man~

[Odybld]

Let's see... as much as parts of 10♢ would probably fit me, I can easily see the biggest hint also being fitting for another person who I know is very dear to you. (The hug IRL part. Sure, that could be me since I'm hoping to have that vacation this or next year, but I'm not the only one in huggable reach.)

The first message you sent to me was sent on May 12th.

So while this would mean that 11 days ago /was/ the anniversary of you messaging me for the first time, I also find it hard to believe that I would be the "first person I met here" for you. You seemed fairly active to me already by the time I joined, and what with you having been around for three months prior to our convo...

But on the other hand, you know what's gonna be next: I am reluctant to guess myself because I'm bad at thinking highly enough of myself :')

Honestly, right now none of the descriptions other than 10♢ seem to fit me enough, but as you know, I also have a very warped perception of my personality, so you might have described me somewhere and I didn't recognize it because I am terrible at accepting any form of validation and compliments.

And, well... "I never let you go with an iron insistence" if that doesn't sound very familiar, I don't know what. You sure were determined to keep me talking, no matter how much I thought I'm not worth the time.

You know me, I'm terrible at starting conversations, but that doesn't mean I don't enjoy it when I'm being approached :3

Yes, you are my first Reborn friend and I'm tearing up typing this Ama

I have... no bloody clue if I'm even on here to be honest lol. I'm very bad at judging my own character or how people think of me ((mostly cause I assume that literally everyone hates me... even people I know who don't. it's... unbecoming I know but I'm just not very confident in myself really... or that I really even have redeemable qualities that would make people want to think anything of me really I suppose. I guess to me, I just feel like I'm not really worth being friends with or even caring about. Well, I used to a lot more than I do now. I'm still pretty bad about it sometimes but I'm learning to not be so... much this way anymore I suppose.))

Anyway, since I've got no idea, I'll jsut say even fi I'm not, you're a cool dude Ody. Keep on keeping on man~

Someone already guessed you via server pm Huk! Come on man

[Ice Cream Sand Witch]

I think 6♢ sounds pretty much exactly like me and matches conversations we've had . o .

[Raindrop Valkyrie]

Woooooooooot? Apparently I'm that predictable to everyone but myself huh?

[Odybld]

Woooooooooot? Apparently I'm that predictable to everyone but myself huh?

I believe that if you read it all carefully it will strike you. Discard the negative thoughts and think about what I've been preaching to you in all of my pop-ups from time to time

I think 6♢ sounds pretty much exactly like me and matches conversations we've had . o .

Naturally

[Sutoratosu]

I am most obviously the 2♤

yeah, it really twas nice while it lasted, wasn't it?

BTW: I'm fully expecting you to go out there and kick everyone's asses next season

[Odybld]

I am most obviously the 2♤

yeah, it really twas nice while it lasted, wasn't it?

BTW: I'm fully expecting you to go out there and kick everyone's asses next season

I lost my interest and motivation. We'll see about next season. Although I'd do 100 battles against the poison leader no problem <3

And of course you're that one, dear rival.

[Jelly]

i dont know you so none of these are me but this is neat dude

[Raindrop Valkyrie]

8♡: ((I know you said red suits were lady folks most likely, but uh... still this one kinda fits me? Other than that I don't think you'd call me cute, but otherwise yea XD. More in general sense though. Due to the nature of our conversations I believe it probably wouldn't be this one yet... it could be at the same time... basically I am pretty sure it 100% is not, BUT I'm including it anyway LOL. Deal with it~))

6♤: ((Probably the correct one knowing me.))

7♤: Distant is constantly a term that is throw around with me in mind. Since I am a pretty distant individual according to most folks. ((to the point some don't understand how I can be so genuinely nice to people when I stand so far back and nearly never engage with people.))

The most probable ones for me I think. 6♤ in it's own way especially, I don't so much think others are hard on me, mostly I just can't believe any person would really care or have reason to respect me. I'm not really what I'd consider a good role model or a good person to look up to in such a regard. Hell, there's a reason when people ask me about writing stuff that I tell them to never write like me. Cause I know I'm a pretty awful writer in all honesty. But, knowing that is the first step to improving it lol. I dunno, I'm just a person that has a hard time thinking I have any semblance of worth to people. I have a hard time believing I can mean something to someone. ((in whatever capacity.))

[Odybld]

8♡: ((I know you said red suits were lady folks most likely, but uh... still this one kinda fits me? Other than that I don't think you'd call me cute, but otherwise yea XD. More in general sense though. Due to the nature of our conversations I believe it probably wouldn't be this one yet... it could be at the same time... basically I am pretty sure it 100% is not, BUT I'm including it anyway LOL. Deal with it~))

6♤: ((Probably the correct one knowing me.))

7♤: Distant is constantly a term that is throw around with me in mind. Since I am a pretty distant individual according to most folks. ((to the point some don't understand how I can be so genuinely nice to people when I stand so far back and nearly never engage with people.))

The most probable ones for me I think. 6♤ in it's own way especially, I don't so much think others are hard on me, mostly I just can't believe any person would really care or have reason to respect me. I'm not really what I'd consider a good role model or a good person to look up to in such a regard. Hell, there's a reason when people ask me about writing stuff that I tell them to never write like me. Cause I know I'm a pretty awful writer in all honesty. But, knowing that is the first step to improving it lol. I dunno, I'm just a person that has a hard time thinking I have any semblance of worth to people. I have a hard time believing I can mean something to someone. ((in whatever capacity.))

6♤ it is man. I hope you keep that in your mind because you are super hard on yourself and yet very well liked and respected

[Ironbound]

This is a very creative way of saying thanks. But for the life of me I can't figure out if I'm here, or who I am if I do feature. Still, congratulations, Ody!

[Odybld]

This is a very creative way of saying thanks. But for the life of me I can't figure out if I'm here, or who I am if I do feature. Still, congratulations, Ody!

I suggest you try your hand and do that soon, before the thread is locked and I'm charged with the repair bills because I shortcircuited Jeri's brain after the guarantee had expired!

[Raindrop Valkyrie]

6♤ it is man. I hope you keep that in your mind because you are super hard on yourself and yet very well liked and respected

Aye, I know I know. I'm trying my best to recognize this, and that this is a true thing. It's just hard for me since I'd had so many people tell that this was true... and yet treating me like utter garbage. To the point i assume that that's what everyone does. Whiiiiich I need to stop doing. The people that did shitty things to me... aren't you guys. I need to give the benefit of the doubt more... I need to learn to forgive and let go of things. It's a lot harder said then done though. It's basically rewiring myself as a person since I've learned to be this way to defend myself from getting hurt. However, now the only purpose it serves to function is to hurt others I care about. But, it's not easy to turn off. lol, I'm a very broken person, just trying to fit the pieces back together... it's one piece I've yet to realign how I want. I'll keep working at it though.

[Odybld]

Aye, I know I know. I'm trying my best to recognize this, and that this is a true thing. It's just hard for me since I'd had so many people tell that this was true... and yet treating me like utter garbage. To the point i assume that that's what everyone does. Whiiiiich I need to stop doing. The people that did shitty things to me... aren't you guys. I need to give the benefit of the doubt more... I need to learn to forgive and let go of things. It's a lot harder said then done though. It's basically rewiring myself as a person since I've learned to be this way to defend myself from getting hurt. However, now the only purpose it serves to function is to hurt others I care about. But, it's not easy to turn off. lol, I'm a very broken person, just trying to fit the pieces back together... it's one piece I've yet to realign how I want. I'll keep working at it though.

6♤: It's hard when you're both super hard on yourself and believe that everyone's super hard on you. And I don't want to tell you that you're wrong about it, I don't want to dismiss that feeling of yours, but I hope you were more receptive to the sympathy and appreciation and respect lots and lots of people, including yours truly, have towards you.

See how it fits together? Anyway, let me beat this dead horse a little more and say that you have to love yourself a little more and accept our love too

[Kamina]

8♧ :[

[Odybld]

8♧ :[

God.

Although Skitty saw the thread later and got her answer earlier.

Poor Kam

[Avatar of Grima]

I think I'm either the 6♧ or the 7♤ probably the 6 though

[Rosesong]

I have no idea if I'm listed here. If I were to be, I'd guess I were 9 <3 ??

[Odybld]

I think I'm either the 6♧ or the 7♤ probably the 6 though

No and no

I have no idea if I'm listed here. If I were to be, I'd guess I were 9 <3 ??

And yes. Looks like only the older auths are having trouble

[Chase]

Guess I'm stable enough bite the bullet here and own it.

I was the enigmatic King of Diamonds - with Diamonds being reserved for the girls of this here place due to being a red suit. (Geez, that made it difficult to for me to guess!)

"K♢: Yet another ambiguious one. Ups and downs is what it's been with you, and I trust that things are a little more stable the last few months. On one side any sign of you being ambitious around here makes me wary. On the other side I can appreciate a conversation sparker like you quite a lot. Although I often disagree in the ways you think about things, it's always nice to have someone vested in other matters."

I think there's something really cool about being the 'King' of diamonds though. It actually introduces a bit of acceptance. My masquerade has caused myself and (hopefully not too many) others to go through the the Kubler-Ross cycle of grief - and while many of those I affected have moved on, I was most definitely still kicking myself over it because it seemed like the problem was persisting be it people who would ask about the former 'queen' to people who fairly like to hold a grudge.

My philosophy had been since the confession - as a method of rushing to put the real me in her place in as many broken-but-not-ruined areas as I could - to put her 'to death.' She was always certain, but more perhaps more graceful than I was. I - in contrast - have been polarizing from the start in virtually everything I post. Every time she was brought back up, my heart sank, or would flare up in rebuke, or would slink away.

I'm okay with admitting it now - perhaps as I should have been back then (and OBVIOUSLY well before then.)

Ody. Thanks for finding it in your heart for appreciating me for who I was -and- yet at the same time who I am. It's creative, clever, and most importantly, it's real.

[Sheep]

And yes. Looks like only the older auths are having trouble

I was gonna assume that I'm not on here but this has me questioning? I don't remember having a particularly large impact on you at any point in time but if you feel otherwise then let me know, I'd be happy to hear it. This is pretty neat regardless though.

[Odybld]

I was gonna assume that I'm not on here but this has me questioning? I don't remember having a particularly large impact on you at any point in time but if you feel otherwise then let me know, I'd be happy to hear it. This is pretty neat regardless though.

Hunter made me give him the answer and Jeri is just so rekt by it, words can't even describe it. Anyway, thanks a lot man! Also never go back to being just Sheep