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  1. I put my vote for @Specific for Member and Artist for the Year.
  2. Hi hello, I found this bug where if you lose against Isha and try to come back, you're stuck and can't progress in the story.
  3. "May the stars guide you."

  4. Hi, I tried using a Queenly Majesty Tsareena in Crawli's Gym Battle to bait the Scizor into Bullet Punching, and Bullet Punch went through even with Queenly Majesty in effect.
  5. Greetings Reborn community, As you may have judged by the title, I'm not getting much better as time passes by. It's been a fluctuating ebb and flow of emotions, but now, I just feel nothing anymore...Here's why. My current family situation is still a living hell. Granted, it's not at its worst possible stage, and I'm grateful it isn't, but nonetheless, I would prefer it to be over already. I don't exactly have the luxury to go my own dark way as pleasing as it may sound. When the person who manipulated you and practically lied their way into your heart still lives in the house with you, it's hard to settle down in a place that you're supposed to feel the safest. The worst part is my siblings have fallen into the trap, and as much as I disapprove of their...naive and childish ways, they don't understand that he's doing the same that he did to me for my 16 years of living on this earth. I want it to be over, but things never work out in the way that they should, and so I'm slowly detaching myself from the people who call themselves my family. (My mother is the only one whom I can put my trust in as of now.) Three words: Social anxiety disorder aka SAD, which describes me to a T. I've had it (or would it be better to say developed it?) since middle school. I've lost my voice and openness towards society as I was not only being lied to at home but also the people whom I valued as close friends only took advantage of my kindness. Since the slew of bullying incidences, I've dealt with being alone. Fast forwarding a few years, I've grown used to being alone and being my own best friend because all my past experiences with friends have been short-lived or a lie. Even now, I don't fully trust the friendships I make because they never last. Believe me when I say that they never last for a long time. Because of my SAD, I'm constantly pushing my mental bounds wondering where I went wrong with a person starts replying to texts differently or the tone in their voice changes a bit. It's caused me great pain, which is why I am slowly detaching my feelings from relationships. It's more of a protective measure because I know how I will be if I get too attached or too close to someone. Finally, my existence. While I have my existential crises on a daily basis, it makes me wonder what am I actually here for. Sure, I may dream of becoming someone in the influential law profession, but what gives me the hope that I'll actually get that far? I've come to terms that I'm only here to serve that purpose and that's it. Once I do my deeds and try to implement what I want to implement, I'll be purposeless again. I don't plan on getting married at all (because I'm aroace), so that's out of the question. The idea of living with a significant other for so long seems like something out of fantasy; once those passionate emotions of love sour, what are you left with? Pain, sorrow, regret...need I say more? I've detached myself from the idea of marriage or trying to exist beyond the goal I set for myself or whoever put this goal in me. As you can see, a pattern is forming. I'm slowly detaching, and the more I do, the less human I seem to become. I'm aware that trying to hide away my emotions and pretend they aren't there will mentally destroy me, but it doesn't seem like I have any other choice. I rather not go to a therapist where they tell me the things I want to hear and be labeled as "mentally unstable" even if that is what I consider myself. I also rather not talk about my problems to others because they have it worse especially since I've had so much given to me. (No, I'm not rich or born into riches.) In writing, I must etch my sorrows because my voice is gone, my soul dims as time passes on, and my heartbeat is inaudible through the armor and wintery cold I've subjected it to. I'm not sure how I'll get out of this one; I'm convinced that I'll never show my emotions ever again because I've hidden them for so long and detached myself from to the point where I can't even shed tears of sadness anymore. I just lay there lifeless as I internalize it and in turn, it brings me physical pain. I walk a lonesome path, but one could argue that I chose(or doomed) myself into doing so. I push everyone away for fear of hurting them, them hurting me, and me hurting myself by getting too close, so in order to cope and keep myself drowning into the depths of my despair, I have to detach. It's the only thing I know how to do because everything else I tried didn't work. Sorry for bothering all of y'all with my personal dilemmas, but it is unbearable to keep this stuff in. I'll leave it at this for now, and I'll end with a paraphrase from one of the Reborn gym leaders that sums up what I feel... "I'll see you all in a meaningless tomorrow, wearing another false smile."
  6. General Information: Name: Riku Sakuraba/Alcantara Age: 18 (but I'm an old soul) Gender: Male Birthday: 01/11/2000 Location: Earth (The US) Height: 6'2/3ish (I'm still growing...) Hair color: Originally black, but fluctuates between a darker shade of blonde Eye Color: Light Brown Lives: (With my other self) Parent and siblings Pets: Dog (but it's technically my sister's, not mine) Relationship status: Single (Aroace) Favorite Food: I'm not picky. So long as it's edible and doesn't bite back, I will eat it. Favorite Drink: Green tea Favorite Color: Primarily black, but I also like dark shades of blue, red, and grey. Favorite Music: I'm well rounded with a multitude of genres. Music with a message or a mood to it really satisfies me though. Favorite Band: Probably none (unless P!ATD is one, but I'm not sure so...) Favorite Album: I don't have one. Favorite Song: Currently, it's Kamex's Remix of Run Away from Pokemon Mystery Dungeon. It ties with Kamex's Never Alone: Cutscene Medley. Favorite Game: Blue Dragon for console games; Pokemon Reborn, Rejuvenation, and Desolation, and Final Fantasy games I can get my hands on. Favorite Genre of Games: RPGs Hobbies: Sitting in solitude pondering life's questions; when not doing that, I like doing art, cooking, writing stories and poetry, and sleeping. Favorite Movies: Bleach: Fade to Black Favorite Shows: Bleach and Tokyo Ghoul are at the top of the list. So who am I? I'm an observer of sorts. I don't really have much presence here on the Reborn community as a whole. I'm the guy you see on the Discord asking for what monotype runs to do; I love a good challenge to games that are already challenging. I joined Reborn when E15 was out, but I got more into it as the episodes came. Other than that, I'm just your average guy who talks in cryptic messages with hidden meanings. What am I responsible for? As far as responsibilities are concerned, I have none. I sometimes post responses in the R&R threads, but that's not really a responsibility of mine. What can I talk to you about? Anything within reason. Whether it deals with personal life or not, I don't mind. You can come to me about anything that troubles you. Granted, I am young, but I have been around a lot of insightful people, so I will try and help as best as I can. In real life, people often compliment me on my ability to be so kind, understanding, and helpful. (I don't take compliments very well because I feel like I'm tricking y'all into believing in someone who isn't there.) I'll field your questions if you have any, but I do sometimes slip into cryptic messages and hidden meanings so it may not always be as clear as one may think. (I'm working on that, I'm sorry.) Closing Statements? I didn't think I'd get this far, but here I am. Joking aside, it's very nice to meet you all, and I hope that we can meet and chat sometime whether to be about personal issues to competitive Pokemon (Monotype is my forte, sort of.) I should mention that I do tend to disappear off forums at times, but nonetheless, you can always find me on Discord. Farewell, and may you carve your own path in the darkness.
  7. So far, it's a battle between an icy edgelord and the robot who got through Iron Chef Jr. This'll be fun.
  8. "I will not wish you that the light guides your way for even light leads those astray. Instead, carve your own path in the darkness for your heart knows where the mind needs to go." Riku Sakuraba

  9. Dear Naoto, First and foremost, I'm so sorry for your loss. You have my condolences. When you meet someone who you relate with on a spiritual level and then death comes to take them, I can only imagine that it's so hard to recover from that. This is a grieving period for you; you shouldn't expect to bounce back up so quickly after losing someone so close to your heart. It's unfortunate that no one can understand the pain you feel; it makes you feel so alone in the world, but do not lose heart. As long as you keep him in your heart, he never really dies. He lives on through you. Again, give yourself time to grieve no matter how long it may take, and don't be afraid to reach out to the family if you ever need to. Again, you have my sincerest apologies, but know that all hope is not lost and that you're not alone, though it may feel like it at times. You're part of a diverse community, and I will personally offer you as much support as I possibly can. I'm still young, but losing someone that close is something that I always fear. Nevertheless, give yourself as much time as you need and most importantly, take care of yourself. ~Riku Sakuraba
  10. Well, might as well go with the gusto on this one. Let's see how long this lasts me...
  11. Hajimemashite. Boku wa Mitsuru desu. Yoroshiku onegaishimasu. 

    1. Shamitako

      Shamitako

      はじめまして、レクシです。よろしくお願いします

    2. Mysterious Fox Assassin
  12. I'm waiting for the rain.

    1. Dreamy

      Dreamy

      We're all waiting for Ame

  13. Forum Name: Mysterious Fox Assassin Showdown Alt(s): Usually Riku Sakuraba, but it's usually something edgy if it's not the one mentioned previously Discord: Riku Sakuraba #3632 Availability: EST (Open for anything unless I'm on nocturnal schedule, but I can adjust my sleep schedule as needed.) Favorite Types: Dark, Ice, Ghost Least Favorite Types: Fairy, Rock, Normal Last 4 digits of credit card: haha
  14. Hey everyone, I'm writing to you all today to share something I've kept hidden. I couldn't really talk about it before because it's hard for others to empathize to this, but it's come to a point where I must share my story with others. Keeping it to myself isn't healthy for me, and it only invites more and more suffering. It's about my "family". My supposed father (who I've come to bitterly hate) is causing me and other members of my family grief. He's selfish, manipulative, vindictive, and everything disgusting you'd see in a person. As a child to a parent, most people would expect for me to just grin and bear it until the situation got better. Well, it didn't. In fact, it got considerably worse. Something in me couldn't take it anymore, and it takes a lot for me to loathe a person to the point of detaching myself, especially if it's someone who you've given a part of your life to. I told him that I didn't consider him to be my father. The way he treated me and my mother was unforgivable. He started going on and on about the past and what he's done for me. Many people would normally say that I should apologize to him, but when you've actually met him, you'd understand why I say those things. All he cares about is taking care of himself. It's never about other people; it must always have a benefit to him in some way. He has made some attempts to reassure his "father" position in my life, but I've shut him out a number of times so that he knows I was serious. He has what I call a "god" complex. He feels as if he can't do any wrong. It's always some other factor or person that did the deed. I've grown to hate him so much the more time he's in the vicinity. This experience has not only been scarring for my mother, but it is also been scarring to me. While I'm not the one whose isn't receiving the brunt of his idiocy, my siblings and I are getting the backlash of it. He can't even take care of the kids who still trust him. Everything is always up to his knowledge and his judgment. Even when my siblings are sick, he doesn't even care for them or give the least bit of concern. If things were up to him, we would have nothing. Because of his god complex, he feels like no one except him deserves the best. I'm just tired. He's the reason why I've changed negatively over the years. When I told my aunt about this, she was surprised that I didn't need therapy after all he's put us through. Anyone with eyes and common sense knows that what he did to me, my mother, and my siblings was wrong. I haven't even told my friends, but my mother's friends know that she's going through with him, and they look at him with scorn and even anger. People often say that they wish they had a father, but in my case, it'd be better if I didn't have one at all. I would've lived a lot better if I didn't know him. The worst part is that he won't leave. He always wants to fit in any space we have in our family, and we constantly have to push him out. He's like a child trapped in a man's body, and those are the people I hate the most. I endlessly hope for the day that I never have to see him again. It's just so hard to live in the same house as him and expect me to not want to be blunt with him. It's not something I take pride in, and it's not something I could tell my real life friends either. The people I know either met him before or worked with him with volunteer work. I've grown so withdrawn from people in general. I just feel so damaged; it's as if like I'm trying to hide my brokenness between a smile and calming demeanor, but really, I want to just break down and cry. I never wanted this; we never wanted any of this. I'm tired of living this double life where I have to be this perfect little angel and this messed-up demon at the same time. It's why I've stayed away from people all this time. Sometimes, I question if I'll ever have a normal relationship with anyone ever again. Who drew up this sick plan where we all have to suffer terrible family situations? I just hope I can keep going after this; this is just too much for me to handle.
  15. My method of teambuilding is covered the previous mons weaknesses. For example, if Infernape is Fire/Fighting, then I'd look for a mon that is Water/Psychic (Slowking in this case). Sometimes, if I do a challenge run, I'll have two physical attackers, two special attackers, and one defensive mon and one special defensive mon. When it comes to competitive though, let's say...monotype, you have to know the ins and outs of the type you're using. You won't always win with a standard core if your type is flexible, but if there is other mons where you can make up a new strategy or tweak the old strategy a bit, then you should test it out and see if it works for you. I hope this helps.
  16. Hello everyone, I'm writing a "light" (hopefully) novel that showcases an anti-hero trying to find himself. I won't say much more than that since I'd rather let the story speak for itself. >_> Without further ado, here is the prologue to this story. Hope you all enjoy it! ~MFA aka Sakuraba
  17. Hello everyone, It's truly been a long journey through life, but it doesn't seem like I'm going anywhere fast. I'm dealing with keeping myself from boiling over. I want to throw away all my responsibilities and just wait for death to come, but life's not that easy, I'm afraid. I've been on this emotional roller coaster for a few years now. There are times where I feel like I can take on the world and all of its challenges, and other days, I just...don't. I've been wanting to get off this roller coaster for a while, but it just keeps going. My emotions are all mixed up. Anger becomes sadness; sadness becomes bitterness, and bitterness turns to hatred. Every day feels like another punishment. Sure, there may be times where I laugh, cry, and feel content, but those don't last. I feel too different, and it's not like I can conform to be like everyone else. Everyone seems to find enjoyment in being actual "teenagers" especially seniors at this time of yeah, but I just...don't. It's why I've withdrawn and detached myself from society emotionally. There's times where death would be better than to live life under a kind and happy guise. However, inviting death would only incite more harm than good in my case. My heart and mind is divided into the kind me that wants everyone to go for their dreams and the miserable me who is balled up in a corner, wishing for everything to end. It kind of feels like you're drowning, but everyone can see you breathing just fine on the surface. As I descend deeper into the ocean called life, my mask cracks just a little, and the bitter me shows itself just a little bit. I've learned to cope with it as much as I possibly can to hold back the darkness, but I feel like I've been fighting for way too long. I'm done trying only to be light. I feel trapped and I don't know what to do anymore. It's not like I can tell anyone close to me that I'm feeling this way. They'd probably brush it off and tell me to "cheer up" or "don't be so down in the dumps". I don't expect others to understand the pain I feel anymore. It came with me becoming emotional detached from society. I endlessly wished that I was born with little to no emotions at all. I'm slowly drowning as life's troubles fills my lungs and chokes my sanity. I can only hope that someone can see through the surface and save me from myself...
  18. Dear Luca, There's nothing wrong about not wanting to be made fun of. I struggle with this sometimes. Since I've been bullied for the duration of high school (As to how I survived that, I still couldn't tell you.), I've reached the point where I realized a few things. 1) Humans aren't perfect. We're subject to error. It's those who have a malicious heart to expand upon that failure and use it as a weapon. 2) Jokes directed at a person only add heat to the already boiling water. Everyone's temperature is different; when you meet a person, you gotta know what their background(or temperature in this analogy) is. 3) Most importantly, give yourself some love. Treat yourself in the best way that no one could. I think it's also important to keep your closest friends close. Keeping distance between who's a potential friend and who's not might be helpful. All in all, the message I'm trying to drag across is to be your own best friend. In the end, the only one who can understand you is you. However, if you don't know yourself truly, then how will you be able to love yourself? I'm not saying that you should cut off your friends. Friends are wonderful if they have the similar experiences and personality as you, but it's important to be able to carry your light when you're behind closed doors. Finally, you are a wonderful individual that has such a creative mind. You aren't an ugly potato; you're a beautiful mango.
  19. BandorKitty, I'm not much of an expert when it comes to romance, but I've had to cut ties with a lot of "female friends" because the relationship got too awkward. It was hard because of the time and effort I spent on them, but after a while, I had to come to terms with my decision. In your case(gender-flipping here, so forgive me), I believe that it's important that you come to terms with yourself. Being comfortable in your own mind and skin is important because it allows you to see life and love in your "looking glass" so to speak. Give yourself time to breathe, pick up a new hobby, treat yourself, and most importantly, never waver to the will of others. Experience life the way you wish to experience it. You are no longer bound by the will of another. You are you, and that is all that should matter. If you ever need someone to lend an ear, we, the Reborn community, will be happy to do just that.
  20. Aegistal, I'm sorry to hear of your struggle with depression. I have (and I am currently) going through a relapse of my depression, but I've never been prescribed medication. The thing about antidepressants(or any advertised medicines you see on t.v.) is that it introduces tons of side-effects for the hope that a person's mood will be boosted. In my opinion and from the description of the medicine's effect on you, it doesn't seem like it is helping at all. The best medicine for depression is to talk to someone you genuinely trust, and this person must be respectful of you as well. It won't do you any good to find a person who brushes off depression. Whether it be here in the forums or somewhere in real life, talking to someone will be the best remedy for depression. I would also advocate lots of self-care or treating yourself whenever you can. I think it's best that we reward ourselves even for the small victories. The road to recovery is long and hard, but I, as well as others in the Reborn community, will be happy to have your back whenever you need us. Please don't be afraid to talk to us, and we'll do our best to offer as much support as we possibly can.
  21. Electric didn't pan out as I would've liked so here's this one.
  22. Since one of my favorite's is in my hands now, it's time for me to try and take this league by storm~ Dear Mega Ampharos, I wish to bring you back soon... R.I.P. Luciano 2k18
  23. Ah oops; let me fix that real quick I'll keep my old moveset; if I desperately need Tailwind, I'll use my one move token
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